Faults of mine

chapter 1 voice of me

Riya pov

   Even when   I'm in college with room full of my  friends sorry let's normalise the word classmates . Im feeling alone  although I'm talking to my benchmates liya and Sara . Why I'm feeling like this May be something is wrong with me . I keep on overthinking whenever I have some time because I need some one who comforts me . It doesn't mean I don't have people to talk or hang out it only means they never even try to understand me or ask me if I'm ok and I'm not a person who craves for attention and I won't beg anyone to understand me or make true friendship with me .

  Suddenly professor starc enters into the class all settled in their places and he announced the results of final  exam. I'm curious about my results and getting tensed (reason:- I worked hard very hard )

Professor starc announced the topper of this exam is Rozy..Alex..and Riya ..all clapped .. I'm feeling bit relaxed and happy because I'll be rewarded with scholarship..That happiness didn't stayed for long time as prof.Starc  said that  this time we are not giving scholarship to the third rankers as Principal sir said we have shortage of funds ..so he said sorry to me and he also said "make sure you'll work hard even more.."  in my mind I thought I only knew how hard I tried and started to accept the fact with  a tear in my eye .. suddenly I told myself to stay strong..I stood up and went near to Rozy and Alex to congratulate them  and they said thank you and not more because I'm not so close to them they didn't talk more with me as  they are busy in saying Thank you.

As soon as class completed i went straight to home without wasting any second... my parents are still in office they are workoholics ..and we have many debts due to grandma treatment...I throw my bag on the bed and cried.. after some time I got up and took a shower .. waiting for my parents to have dinner with them ..

    Im talking to myself yes I am an introvert and I don't have any friends and it's ok I have my best friend that is me yes it's me no one understands me better than me ..I just gave a smile see I'm making myself smile .. feeling proud and I completed my assignment ..I saw a message on my phone Andrew messaged me for the assignment pics..ugh these guys will think of me only when they need any help ..but I don't want to be rude with others so I sent him the pics of my assignment.

  After few hours my parents arrived "hii honey " Mom and Dad greeted me I waved my hand and went to kitchen to arrange dinner...as my parents are working hard I'll help them in household work..so I arranged dinner they had a shower and settled in dining chairs when I'm about to start my dinner..Dad asked me "Riya what's your result" mom also waiting for my answer...I answered lowering my head as I did something wrong "3rd rank" ..Dad and mom got excited and said "congratulations honey" mom asked me "why you are not happy sweetie " ..I said "This year our school management is shortage of funds that's why I'm not getting any scholarship to study. I taught with that scholarship money I can help you guys some how but I couldn't I'm sorry Dad and mom "...mom consoled me that it's ok and they'll handle it ...but I'm still not ok in school I accepted the fact but now it's hurting me I realised I'll take some time to accept this ...Then I said bye and good night to mom and dad ...after I left the room I saw some convo between mom and dad is about to start i don't know why whenever I left room dad starts convo with mom every day I don't have any idea what's the convo about ...I packed my bag and went to sleep ...
        One  boy approached me he's very handsome I was staring at him he said coming closer and digging his eyes in my eyes "why are you staring at me like that wifeyyy " omg how cute he is when he is saying wifeyyy I just melted ..he lift me from the couch wrap me in his arms  and put me on the bed ...I'm just admiring his beauty and his gentleness while he grabbed me ..he's coming to kiss me I just closed my eyes and then I opened my eyes searching for the boy but there's no boy and the room and house is also different then I realised...fuck it's a dream ...

Author's note :- hello everyone I hope everyone are fine ..I don't have any knowledge and experience Im just trying my self in a new role I hope everyone like it ... English is not my 1st language so if you find any mistakes please don't mind and keep encouraging me