Clandestine meetings (wlw, teacher x student)

Eleven

TW: mention of Ed, weight, fainting (?) ect so don't read it that makes you uncomfortable!

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Ivy's pov :

I've been "back at school" for 3 days now, other than that nothing else has really changed. I've been going between my house and Eli's, maple and Theo are still there of course.

The divorce is happening, slowly but surely. Whenever I make an appearance at home mom seems to be pissed of her face so I've just decided to save my self the insanity she causes me and stay as far away as possible.

Miss Quinlan checks up on me regularly, I keep catching her glazing at me. In all honesty it scares me a little, she looks so worried. I'm guessing it's because I fainted In front of her the other day. It's just so weird to see her concerned about something (or someone) she's usually so closed up and careless.

I've been trying my best to keep my head down in class and just get on with my work- so I can actually graduate at the end of this year. I haven't got in any major trouble in a little while which is good. Apart from my little " episode " the lasts few weeks my attendance hasn't been that bad either. Especially compared to other years.

Sophomore year of high school I was in school for a total of 33 days, I was on the verge of being kicked out.

I've been trying to eat food regularly, as in multiple times a day and not once or twice a week. It's so hard to keep up with this whole "recovery" thing when it would be so easy to relapse now.

I'm still so scared of gaining weight so I've resorted to exercising a lot- which surprisingly I didn't use to do that often. I was so exhausted from the fact I wasn't eating that trying to exercise would have put me in a coma and anyone who saw me doing so to.

I go for daily runs and try to walk at least 15 000 steps a day. It's a lot but I honestly enjoy walking, it gives me a moment to relax and not be so stressed about things that In the end don't really matter.

A lot of people say that just because I'm eating doesn't mean I'm recovered or not sick anymore but I wouldn't see why not.? I eat, it's fine. Either way how would they know, they're not the ones stuck in a never ending cycle of a battle with their brain.

I'm currently sitting in the canteen with Eli, Cora and a few of Cora's other friends. She has a lot more than me and Eli, she's in what you would call "the popular crowd". Some would say I am to but I would disagree. I'm known yes, but I'm in no ways popular. Being popular is being supposbly liked by lots of people. That's not me. I've been bullied by various different people for most of my time in middle school and high school.

Cora taps my shoulder, "Ivyyyyyy?" She asks.

"Yes!?" I reply annoyed.

"Wanna go to a party with me this weekend.?? Pleaseeeee" she pleads putting her hands together and giving me supposable "puppy eyes".

I question for a moment. I'm not sure if being around alcohol and all kinds of other substances you find at a party would be the best for me right now.

"I'm not sure Cora, I'll think about it okay?" She nods seeming to understand.

The bell rings and we all walk to our classes. My first afternoon period is history with mr blanc.

I walk into class taking a seat at an empty desk.

Class goes by quick and I start walking to my last class of the day : English. I walk in to see Miss Quinlan writing something on the board her back to me. She's wearing a tight black short skirt paired with a white shirt. The top few buttons are undone leaving very little to the imagination.

I pull my thoughts away from her and try my best to concentrate. We start by reading another 2 chapters of the bell jar and then move onto doing a piece of writing on our thoughts and feelings about the book so far.

I spend a good 15 minutes trying to figure out how to start my writing before eventually giving up and putting my hand up to ask for help.

Miss Quinlan walks over to me a small but noticeable smile on her face. "Yes?" She asks.

"I'm stuck. I'm not sure how to start my writing"
She bends over my desk the smell of her sweet perfume taking over my senses.

"Hmmmm, well why don't you just start of with something simple. You could explain how the book makes you feel first.? Or if you're really struggling then go back to your notes on it."

She flicks the page back over to my diagram of the last few chapters.

"Here. Use this and turn these notes into full sentences and just start your writing of like that"

I nod, she stands back up and walks back over to her desk her presence immediately being missed.

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I walk to meet Eli at the top of the hill outside our school.

"Hey you. How was English with miss hot stuff" I let out a chuckle at his words lightly punching him on the arm.

"It was okay, she did look hot today though." I admit.

"Looks like someone has a little crush" I roll my eyes at him.

"She's my teacher Eli!" I defend myself.

"Rightttt well that's not likely to stop you so..." he teases and I just continue walking ignoring him.

We eventually reach his house and I walk into lulu and maple sitting on the floor playing some video game together.

We walk into the kitchen where Theo is making some cookies with Eli's dad, Luke.

"Hey guys, how have your days been?" He asks and Theo jumps of the counter to give me a hug.

I pick him up. "mine was good" I respond giving Theo a little kiss on the cheek before putting him back down.
 
"Mine to, thanks dad" Eli speaks and I follow him out the room up the stairs and into his. 

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Hey guys I've been so busy but I'm not doing TO much the next 2 weeks so I'll try to get out a few chapters.

ALSOOO GUYS IM GOING TO THE ERAS TOUR IN 10 DAYS LIKE WTF IM SO EXCITED!!

Basically you know the dress from the red tour (the one she sang ybwm in) well I recreated it and it looks literally identical and I'm also wearing a cowboy hat and cowboy boots with the red gloves. I'll insert a picture of the OG dress

Also when I go I'll be posting all my eras tour content onto my fangirl acc (lils_tvx) so follow that if you want!

love you guys
-Lils 🫶💋