I Hate You More

Chapter 1

"And that's the last of it" I said dumping the box labelled 'pillows' on the table. Today was moving day, I was moving into my brothers bougie-ass apartment in London, I was training to be a teacher at a local primary school so I had planned to stay here for a couple years till I earned enough to get my own place.

"I'm so excited you are finally living with me Hayls, it's been our plan forever." Jake pulled me in for a hug.

"Yeah, whoopie" I heard a sarcastic tone come from the sofa, Nathan. Jake rolled his eyes and made me giggle.

"I'm excited too bro, can you show me to my room? I wanna get unpacked as quick as possible." I said excitedly. 

"Of course, i don't know where you are going to fit like 15 boxes of shit though Hayls." he giggled, picking up 2 stacked boxes and carrying them down  the hallway to my room. "first one on the left." he nudged.

My brother and I had always been close, I mean of course we argued but only basic sibling shit, never anything dramatic, and we always made up after. But for the most part we were tight, we had a secret handshake and we had a secret language when we were younger, I don't think I could remember it now though. We had always said that once I graduate university I would move in with Jake it was always a plan since we were like, 6. It feels weird that its actually happening.

** 

Once i finished unpacking my boxes, (which i did perfectly, by the way) i went to the living area to find Nate exactly where he was 3 hours ago, as if he hadnt moved a muscle. But now, Jake was with him and they were watching Marvel movies. It was about 7pm now and no food had been made.

"Hey so, its a bit late to cook, how do you both feel about Chinese takeaway?" I suggested

Jake agreed eagerly but I got no response from Nate, he still had his nose glued to his phone, scrolling through pictures of women in bikinis, liking every photo. What a man-slag.

"OI perv," I said which got him to look up at me, finally. "Chinese, yes or no?" 

"I prefer English personally, better boobs I think" He chuckled thinking he's funny, I wasn't going to admit that I was supressing a giggle myself. I decided to ignore his, slightly racist, comment and grabbed the Chinese menu from the drawer, Jake gave me a £20 but I refused, it was my treat. 

**

The food arrived and Jake and I sat at the table, tucking in. He had cashew chicken and i had beef chow-mein. 

"Yo Jake chuck 'us mine" Nate said, not looking up from his phone.

"Your what." He asked, causing a small smirk to arise on my face

"My food." he said sharply, finally looking up from his bitches.

"You didn't answer when we asked if you wanted food, instead you made lightly racist and misogynistic comments about an Asian girls body and ignored our request." I said turning fully to face him.

"Bitch" he muttered under his breath.

"There's fresh bread and nutella in the cupboard bro. Have some toast" he chuckled a little himself and I could see that Nate was going to hate me and Jake ganging up on him all the time.

We scranned our food and tidied up, it was only 9 and I was a night owl. "Movie?" I said giggly.

"Hayley its 9:15." Jake sighed giving me the look.

"Don't look at me like that, its early. Come onnnn, we can watch Back to the Future.." I said knowing id got him on that one, he sighed but still came over to me and pushed me on the sofa, I propped my legs on his lap and got comfy, kicking Nate to the arm chair.

"She's been here 5 hours and has already stolen my spot," Nate grumbled and crossed his arms over his torso.

"God, do you ever smile? It's a sofa, relax arse-hole." I rolled my eyes turning back to face the TV but I saw Nate huff and settle on the chair, out of the corner of my eye.

** 

I had known Nate since forever, we didn't always hate each other, we just never realised how obnoxious the other can be until we got older. Growing up with him wasn't easy, he always picked on me, I never thought anything of it because he was just a boy, older than me, obviously I can see now just how horrible he was actually being.

We were at our summer house in Cornwall, and mum allowed Jake to bring Nate this time, we had a ritual for our 2 week house. Ever summer we would, arrive, take all the groceries in (just to seem helpful) then kick our shoes off and jump in the pool with our clothes on. That year Nate joined in, but it wasn't a very nice experience. I was wearing a white shirt and a black bra. As I jumped in the pool my shirt went see through, naturally and you could see my bra, I didn't care until I got out the pool and my t-shirt was clinging to my body. "Yo, when did baby Hayley get jugs, she looks so fat now" Nate called, he laughed so hard, not knowing how much it would hurt me. I ran off, I saw Jake push him a little but I didn't feel like he defended me as much as he could have. Anyways, since that day my brother has been super overprotective of me and my sexuality, not allowing anyone to make a comment about my body, even his best friend.

I went to my bedroom and turned my TV on, i got into my pajamas and cuddled up in bed, a knock came at my door. "Hey!" Jack whisper-yelled as he walked into my room.

"Hey bro," I patted the bed next to me, signalling for him to join me. 

"I'm sorry about Nate, he won't always be like this, he's just a mardy git." He chuckled.

"I know, he's not been hurtful, just annoying, kind of expected it to be fair." I responded and giggled.

"You're a good one Hayls, he won't say anything bad and if he does i'll knock his head off his shoulders, this is your place too, you should feel welcome." He said kissing my head and leaving my room.