I was nervous as hell going up those stairs! Preston made a lot of sense, and I need to get some stuff off my chest! I knocked and when I opened the door, I noticed that she was sleeping! I wanted to walk back out so badly but something just wouldn't let me! I walked over to the bed and sat down, "The first day we met, I knew it was something about you Fatima Reina Wilson! Honestly you scared the hell out of me and that's one of the reasons I drewback! You're everything I prayed to God for and when he gave it to me, I didn't know how to handle it! You're not like them broads I've been with in the past, the fame, money and glory don't mean shit to you and if I'm being honest that shit is attractive asf! You don't care to have credit for nothing, and you have a heart made of pure gold! I was a fool, and I attempted to fumble your heart, but you showed me that you know your worth and I need to step to you as a man and not a little boy! I got the message loud and clear! I need you and I know I'm not ready! It pains me to say that I need to let you go! As much as I honestly want us to build something it's not going to happen as long as I'm stuck in my ways! You need a man that's ready to make love to your mind, body, and soul! Although I can definitely make love to your mind and body, my soul is restless and I'm fighting my own demons! When I get my shit together best believe I'm applying all the pressure!" Zac kissed Fatima's forehead and walked out of the room! Her eyes popped open because honestly she wasn't sleep all the way and a tear left both of her eyes! She also knew in her heart of hearts that Zac could be Mr. Right if he was to improve some of his ways! Now she was bombed out because she didn't know if she should go after him or allow him the space needed to improve! Although she wanted to, she fought her urge to go after him! Maybe one day, they'll both be exactly where they need to be willing, ready and able to love on each other but until then there's no Zatima! Fatima rolled over and after 30 minutes of tossing and turning she was finally able to get comfortable! She decided to say a prayer for Zac!
Dear God,
I come to you as humble as I know how, asking you to quench Zac's thirst and fill his spirit! You're the only one who knows what he stands in the need of right now, and I know you can do exceedingly and abundantly above all he can ask or think! I'm praying for his strength in you Lord! Amen!"
And with that she dozed off!
