Yumariri

The restaurant(also probably manga spoilers sorry)

                        Ririka's POV

   We walk into the restaurant and pick a table that has a window, I wanted to sit next to Mary but Yumeko took the seat next to her so I sit at the window and Ryota sits next to me. I stare out of the window to nervous to look at anyone. Mary made me leave my mask in the car and I feel unsafe without it. We order food and while we are waiting the trio start talking (about gambling of course) and I feel a bit left out, I know it's my fault for not joining in but I find it really hard. The waiter hands us our food and everyone starts eating but I get scared to eat in front of people so I drink my water and think about eating instead. Ryota asks me a question but I was zoned out. Why am I like this. I say "sorry please repeat what you said" and he says "do you like your food?" I say yes without thinking and Yumeko says "but you didn't eat any of it yet" omg I'm so embarrassed what should I say?!?! I decide to say "I've ate this before" then Mary responds "but you've never been to this restaurant before". My face is burning and I hate that I don't have my mask to cover it up, my feelings are out there for everyone to see. I'm staring out the window when I say "oh yeah but I've had this at another restaurant" then I take a sip of my drink and excuse myself to the bathroom.

I only had one conversation with them here and I've already embarrassed myself. I pull out my phone to message my sister and beg her to pick me up because I can't do this. She texts to ask me what happened and I reply with: I'm not good at talking to people and nobody here likes me/want to be my friend. Kirari messages: Mary is your friend. I type and send: I know but it's different when we are with her friends I don't fit in and I just embarrass myself. My chest hurts and I can't breathe I really just want to go home. Kirari responds: okay I'll come pick you up ❤️‍🩹

I tell Mary that I'm not feeling well and that my sister is coming to pick me up and she looks a bit annoyed but she lets me go wait outside. While I'm walking away I hear them all laughing together and I wonder why I can't be normal and make friends to laugh with. A car pulls up and my sister puts down her window and tells me to get in. Kirari tells the driver to take us home and I feel safe.