I Hope If You Ever Hear my Name...

The hospital and Luke's Visit.

I found those really addictive German songs....
I had a shower thismorning and washed myself 6 or 7 times!

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Dear God and Jesus, My Lords and Saviors,

Yesterday the fake fraud actress "doctor" came to see me - put a tethescope to my stomache and said she heard momvement and immediately they called an ambulance to send me into an MRI Radiologogy examination (which was going to be faked, frauded and falsified - the results... showing no baby.) The movement she had heard were my twins moving around and kicking.... they claimed I had eaten too much toilet paper and now it was stuck in my intestines, i couldnˋ't digest it and I was going to die. I said "This can wait." and missing my lunch I was told, "No... it canˋt.. by tomorrow... IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE!" Like this was definately lethal... so i was sent to hopsital for the next five hours refusing to do the radiology exam because i said I was pregnant and this was dangerous for my twins. They proceeded to fake, fraud and falsify a blood test and said it showed up that i wasnˋt pregnant, so I was whisked back off to the radiology room and I took one look at that absolutely petrifying, terrifying MRI round big machine and said, "OH NO NO NO NO NO NO NO! You are not getting me in there! i have a phobia! No, I have a PHOBIA!!" so they couldn't do it... then we went back to another doctor and he gave me a liquid to drink saying, "This exists nowhere else in the world but in this hospital." reeeallllly, so, poison then? Archangel Raffiel too it and drank it and widened his eyes when i asked what it is and he said, "The abomonation of sin." so, confirmed, poison. I drank it but I drank nothing... and then the doctor prescribed anti-biotics and a cough syrup and something for bronchitis because he could see that I was ill... and then we spent another hour waiting for a "taxi-ambulance" to get back to the "CHNP" which everybody there kept calling my "HOME." which i was very against and I was genuinely against everything they did.
I slowly getting better now and that is because of what Jesus is doing by healing and curing me, i havenˋt taken anything the doctor prescribed as of yet, it hasnˋt arrived from the "CHNP"s" chemist. So that was an ordeal and a complete and utter waste of time.
Iˋ've found it impossible to write as of late, but thismorning I managed to read ROMANS of The Holy Bible. I am now reading 1 and 2 Corinthians and iˋ've completed The New Testiment for about the 14th time in a row.
We (me and my Guardian Angel) are still awaiting medicine, and an ambulance, and the police, and the postman with no hope in sight but all hope in vain.
I saw Lucas last week which went really, really well and he was so, so, so, so, so loving and I remember Luke saying, "Iˋ'm the sweetest little boy, I really am, really sweet!" He smiled a great big smile and was dipping kinder chocolate into a hot chocolate. I had no money to give my children but 20 euros each and I gave Caitlin an extra 9 euros.... I gave them as many gifts as I could find, but I was penniless. This really upset me because I wanted to do a big shopping trip with them and buy them so many gifts with about 800 euros to spend.... Lucas was really, really adorable and affactionate. He is 10 years old now. A young man! I was really, really very bothered by "pamela" and "nora" who just seemed to want to make things awkwad and there was no need for "nora the fake, fraud and falsified social worker - mafia member -" to be there. "Pamela" was really strict with Caitlin and Lucas and kept insulting them and they both treated them like they were stupid, so I kept going out to smoke, stressed, well, the first time we went around Ettelbruck and Lucas really wanted a scateboard but "lindsey" wouldnˋ't buy it for him unless he used his own birthday money from me on it and she paid the rest... and Caitlin, of course, saved the money up for going to see Shads in Texas. The second time we just went to a cafe and sat down with a cold drink for 40 minutes which wasnˋ't very nice, really. "pamela" said they were going home for a nice big family meal whereupon i know they were looking to try to poison my children and as my family are missing people and i knew they are NOT their family I honestly felt like giving "pamela" the middle finger, but didnˋ't. I loved seeing Lucas and Caitlin. They were the only two little ones who made the time good and lovely and sane.
I must send this now.
Amen.
Godˋ's Little Angel.