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All In Due Time

"All the ways that I've changed
I'm still cleanin' up all the mess that I made
The fires I'm puttin' out
Just 'cause it's over, don't mean I'm over it now"

Michelle Baldesarra
Former Next Step Dancer

I have made my desicion of leaving. That's it. I'm gone. I'll be way happier with my mum. I won't be in any drama anymore. No one can change my mind.

I am in Studio A just getting ready for my goodbye. Honestly I have mixed thoughts about The Next Step. It was the place that I was most happy at, but it was also the place that everything got ruined. My relationship got ruined. I'm friends with Emily but I don't wanna be friends, I wanna be her girlfriend again. Not Stephanie.

I start dancing because it's the last memory  I wanna have of The Next Step. It was a wonderful experience and I'm grateful that I got to live it. So yeah, this is my goodbye to Studio A.

I sit in Squeezed waiting for my mum to come and pick me up so we can hit the road. Someone sits next to me. It's Stephanie. It's kind of weird because yesterday we had a fight and then we kissed when she was drunk but I don't really think she remembers. It's best not to bring it up so it gets even weirder. She looks at me. I look at her.

"Who are you waiting for?" She asks me. I sigh.

"My mum. Why are you here?" I ask her. She sits forward.

"Listen, I wanna say sorry again-" She says but honestly I don't wanna hear it.

"Stephanie, it's fine just drop it." I say annoyed. It's pissing me off.

"You know I can say sorry a million times." She says.

"No you don't, you wouldn't dare say sorry so why change for me? I get it, I ruined your life but it doesn't matter anymore, okay? You won't have to put up with someone who stole your crush," Who you should've got first instead of waiting and letting someone else get her.

"Michelle. You didn't ruin my life." She says and holds my hand. My mum walks in so I get up. I've said my goodbye, I'm leaving and that's final.

"Michelle, honey come on let's go. I've got all your stuff in the car. We need to leave now." She says and comes to me. Stephanie turn to me.

"You're leaving? Michelle, we need you. You're a main part of A Troupe! You can't leave now!" She says and grabs me by my arm to face her. Can she just shush? If I wanna leave then I wanna leave. It's my desicion, not anyone else's!

"It doesn't matter! Just leave me alone Stephanie!" I shout and leave with my mum. I have never been so glad to not have Stephanie's number. She can't text me and get in my way. Just like how I can't get in hers. It's a win win.

I stick my head out of the window and see a billboard. It talks about being happy where you are. It couldn't be more relatable. But it was about a chicken farm so that was relatable.

"Michelle honey, you okay?" She asks whilst driving but looks at me for a split second.

"Yeah," I reply softly. I'm not really in the mood of talking. All I can think about is The Next Step and Regionals. I'm kind of second guessing my desicion. It feels right, but wrong at the same time. I can't turn back now.

Stephanie Grecchi
Jazz Dancer

Michelle leaving was the plan me and Emily had at the very start, now I don't want her to leave. I didn't change until now. I guess I have always wanted her to leave and even more when she was with Emily. Emily took one second to forget about the plan.

I feel like Emily likes Michelle more than me and I don't really want that. I want Emily to like me, not Michelle. I should be the one to leave not Michelle. They can have their perfect life without me in it to ruin it.