yea the party was crazy, lot of drinking, lot of smoking, my guy Ben even put some weed in our cigarettes i love when i party and all of my friend talks and drink just having fun and shit,but i don't know, this is my life now? ... yea is great, if i didn't do things in the past i would have trouble in the future like if i get addicted to weed at 30 i I lose everything if i do it now im very much covered with my parents and a home, yea it seems right to me, you know i meet a girl in a bar like don't know 4 month ago she is fun is not like the other 23 exes, she is alright i mean i don't know if i like her or not i know a thing for sure she's got eyes that eat me like when i stare into her eyes i get paralyzed and i get to know her and she is an angel like she don't do shit, like me, she thinks before doing something, not like me, she doesn't smoke or drink not like me, she take life seriously ... not like me. anyways i think she like like me, like the way she stare into my eyes and the little shaking when i hug her i love that but i think, how a girl so good and honest love me i'm not honest i cheated all my girls i don't wanna do this to her, maybe i shouldn't tell you but she's got a very dark past with relations and shit and even now when i meet her i still notice the little thing that she do that tell me she only believe in love and nothing else and if i accept her hand even if i try to, i know me i will betray her, even if i try hard and pray to god to not hurt her. because i hurt many people, but her, I love her with all my heart,when i see her my heart start to go crazy and i sweat a lot. I know I'm still young but i think that she is my real first love. If I hurt her i will be ashamed of myself for the rest of my life. I think I have a solution... what you say? "tell her the truth" tell her the truth so that she will be hurt by me and never believe in love no more, i can't do that, let her think i never loved her
(dangerously yours reference)
