BUT I didn't tell him.
I sat there numbly during the train ride. I smiled when I had to, laughed when a joke was made, and then rolled my eyes for the same joke, too. Normal. I acted normal, even though my heart absolutely, positively, and quite thoroughly disagreed.
At one point I watched Finn fumble with some cups of coffee, trying to balance three of them at once, even spilling some of it. But then he had that goofy smile on his face that was cute and charming and just so... him. My heart swelled and then shattered.
Because I wasn't going to tell him. No way. I couldn't even pinpoint exactly why I liked him, just that I very much did, but we were opposites in every way, and maybe it was a fated thing that we would be going separate ways soon.
And... he didn't like me like that. Not that I wanted him to, because the friendship between us would be enough for me.
It had to be.
Finally, the train stopped. I followed them off the train, just like that, and then after rounds of hugs and promises to meet up, we went our separate ways.
"Don't forget me, Miss A.B.," is what Finn chose to teasingly whisper to me as we hugged, and I wanted to simultaneously slap him and kiss him.
Obviously, I refrained from both actions and simply nodded and smiled back. I took in his face, his smile, his affection, and then it was all over.
My taxi had arrived, and I left.
I tipped the driver extra because he didn't say anything if he noticed me crying silently in the backseat. I didn't know why I was crying, but just that my heart hurt a bit (and no, it wasn't heartburn or some digestive issue).
When I got to Aunt Cheryl's house, I'd luckily managed to wipe away any traces of my tears as I stood on the porch, watching the taxi rumble away. The door was then thrown open and I was drowned in Cherry's hugs and words of affection and lighthearted admonishment.
When I casually asked about my roommates, I learned that even Aunt Cheryl had known that they'd had plans afterward. I wish I'd known. I wouldn't have gotten so attached, if I could have helped it.
...Actually, no. I don't think I could have helped it even if I tried. Some things, like faith and love... you can't reason your way to them. Your heart took you there, whether or not you realized it.
I guess I just didn't realize it. Now that I did, I was left reeling from the aftershock of it all.
A/N: 💔
P.S. Don't worry; opposite to the chapter title, this is NOT where it ends... XD
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