Letting my love go

Part 3

(Maybe he needs help)

Sean and I went out to dinner and afterwards we caught a movie, I really enjoyed his company, after leaving the theater we decided to take a walk in Forsyth Park, while walking there, Sumpter walked up on us and told Sean be careful with me, I use dudes for sex, and I'll use him too, Sumpter walked away.

 Sean asked me who's that guy, I told him someone I made a big mistake giving him my time, I'll tell him about it while we walk to the park, as we're walking, I told Sean all about Sumpter, he said that's fucked up dudes being married and messing around, he really led me on. I said yeah after he told me that I stopped messing around with him, I won't tell him the things we did sexually.

I told Sean, I didn't let Sumpter penetrate me, he's the first since I lost Dontae, he said he's flattered that I felt comfortable enough to let him do that, we crossed the street and walked into the park. Sean said he likes the park around this time, as long as he doesn't walk to the wrong side which can be dangerous.

 I told him I feel him on that, we stopped walking and sat on a bench, we just talked, Sean, you never told me why you're single or are you, he said trust him he is, and Savannah is a small place when it comes to the gay community, meaning where we met somebody knows somebody, I said true.

Sasha, I dated a guy who was older, at first, he thought I was just a young dude looking for a sugar daddy, until he found out who my family is, after that everything changed, he wanted to get married, and he even wanted me to move in with him, I did like a fool, he became controlling, and he even put his hands on me, and he raped me a few times.

Sasha said he's sorry, I told him I was sorry for getting with someone like that, he used me to get deals with my family's business, one day I came home and found him in bed with another young dude and he beat me and made me watch them having sex. Sasha said that bitch should be horse whipped. I told him I got away from him and got my own apartment, I never told anyone about my abusive relationship.

Sean I'm sorry that happened to you, now I see why your body count is low, most college dudes try and fuck the world, he said not him he just wanted that one special guy, and yes, he went to the man's spot for sex, a dude needs more than a toy to get it off.

I asked him has he been back to that place sense we became friends, he said no, and he has no need to go back there, he found that place from a so-called friend that wasn't really a friend. He asked what about me, I can be honest with him, I told him I haven't been back there either, I met a good friend there to do things with, I don't need that place.

I told him we better get out of here; I see the trade boys starting to come around, Sean said yeah that's the only thing he doesn't like about this park, we walked back to where Sean parked the car, we heard someone say you little bitch, we turned around and Sean said it can't be him, he's out of jail, I asked who's he.

Sean said that's the older guy he was telling me about, the dude started to walk up on us, Sean told him to stay away from him, and he doesn't know how he got out of jail but leave him alone.

He told Sean he doesn't want his infected ass, going around spreading Aids, Sean said that's a lie, it was him, the guy said sure blame him when Sean fucked that dude in his bed, he said he hopes Sean dies and walked away. Sean is there something you're not telling me?

Sasha, there is, but I don't have Aids, I swear to you, and I have my papers to prove it, he told me to tell him why that dude would say that we started walking, I told Sasha how that dude, put a gun to my head and let that other dude rape me. Gavin found out later that he's HIV positive, so I got tested and I don't have it, it's been a year now, and I get tested on a regular basis.