Letting my love go

Part 4

(I don't need anyone but Dontae, so I thought)

 DJ it's been a week, and I haven't heard from Sean, I even went to his apartment, he either wasn't there or is just not answering his door, because he knows it's me.

Sasha, I'm just going to say it, you act as if Dontae is still here, and Ms. Parker told mom how you talk to my brother as if he's here, I think you scared Sean away, maybe if you give Sean some space, he'll think about what's going on and call you.

DJ it's been a week he's not coming back and I'm tired of begging him, I don't need anyone but Dontae, he told me maybe I should talk to someone and get some help, I told him I'm fine, and Sean is being selfish I hung up on DJ.

I went downstairs, and I rushed into the kitchen I told Ms. Parker to stay the fuck out of my business, and how dare she tell my mother-in-law a damn thing about what's going on in my house, did she forget she works for me now keep her mouth shut or find herself employment elsewhere.

 First of all, Mr. Sasha you're not going to disrespect me, he started to walk out, I told him to sit his ass down and hear me out, I let him have his say, he sat down, yes, I told him because your grandmother is out of town and someone needed to know what's going on around here, believe it or not I care about him.

And his friend is right, it's not healthy for him to be so obsessed over his dead husband, and that young man not only cares about him, but I also heard it in his voice he loves you, and you're going to let that boy get away, now get some help, and if I'm fired so be it, he needs to get it together.

 Ms. Parker you're not fired, I walked out of the kitchen and left the house, I ended up driving to the park, I got out of the car and walked to the bench we sat at the last time I saw Sean, damn I miss him. I guess I could talk to someone, but not because Ms. Parker told me to, I'm doing it because I don't want to lose Sean, and if he finds out I'm getting help he'll be my friend again.

 I left and stopped off and got a burger from burger world, I haven't been here in years, I got my food and sat in my car and started eating, I looked around this is the spot I ate at when Dontae and I were in college. I saw a lot of younger people here, I guess they still come here, I saw Sean and some other dude.

I got out of the car and confronted Sean, so this is why you haven't called me back, and I've been going to your apartment, so was he in there with you or were in at his place in his bed.

 Sasha, he's my damn cousin, so he's not the reason I haven't called you back, you scare me, and you need help, I won't deal with someone who thinks I need to be punished, I've been through that before, until you get help for your obsession no one is safe with you. Sasha I'm falling in love with you, but I can't see you anymore because I'll never take Dontae's place, and I never will, I walked away. Sasha called me, but I kept walking, cousin said so that's the dude I told him about, I said yes, and the crazy thing is I still love him, he said love is a hard thing.

I kept calling Sean to come back, I hollered I love you, I just stood there, tears went down my face if only he heard me, he told me he's falling in love with me, I walked back to my car and drove away. I cried the whole ride home, when I got there, I called for Ms. Parker, but she didn't answer me, shit she went home.

I went upstairs and talked to Dontae, again no response, babe I need your help, Sean said he's fallen in love with me, but he can't see me again, babe am I really obsessed with you, just because I'm keeping my promise to you. Dontae just don't stare at me say something, God I am losing it, he won't answer me when he's upset with me. I just laid down and stared at his pic.

I must've falling asleep, the sun is shining through the balcony doors, I set up in bed and looked around Dontae's pic wasn't in bed, I looked on the floor and the glass had broken, I got out of bed and started to pick the picture up, but I cut my finger, shit.