Lost in Love | LingOrm (GxG)

9 - Why Can't We Get Together?

"Why are you still here, P'Ling?"

"I'm waiting for you, Orm." And that does not mean only now, I am waiting for you to be ready for us, Nong.

"You waited for me for more than five hours?" I've waited more than that and I'd still patiently be here, by your side.

I just nod my head and feel shocked to see her eyes that seem to glisten with tears. She then moves closer and circles her arms around my waist, hugging me tight. "If only it is that easy, I'd want to hold you forever."

I must have imagined her saying that.

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She is really falling asleep? How cute.

I sit down by her side, taking off my suit so I can put it on her body. Smiling softly, I feel my cheeks burning up by looking at this sweet creature in front of me.

Rubbing her head gently to not wake her up, I find myself starting to sing a soft tone to serenade her. A song that sticks in my head, wanting to know her answer so badly, but I need to work harder to get there.

Would it be good if you and I tried moving to the next level?

If I ask not to be friends with you as before...would you accept it?

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Many weeks have passed by with me and Nong Orm meeting each other almost every day for the shoot. We have become closer, of course, actually all of us, the whole crew are like family already.

"Stand closer! Why are you guys being this shy?"

Not knowing how to react, I just give my signature smile while the younger lady beside me covers her face up with her palms while continuously letting out a cute whine.

Seeing her not moving an inch, I take the initiative to wrap my arm around her waist and pull her closer towards me gently. Her shocked face makes me giggle with how cute she is in my eyes. Only to have my heart pounding hard when she intentionally leans in and kisses my cheek.

Loud screams are all over the place but my attention is only directed at her. I might appear calm and collected on the outside but I am actually exploding with happiness right now.

Ever since we broke our boundaries, although I still court her in my own way, there are no practices or kisses anymore. So to get a peck on my cheek from her, I cherish this moment wholeheartedly. Not caring if it's only for the photos that we are taking or it's her own intention, I am fulfilled either way.

Call me whipped, but only for her.

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"Stay the night at my place, Nong." I whisper beside her head, she is finally waking up after dozing off in between the shoots.

Her eyes are still closed but she reaches out her hand to caress my cheek softly. "Why so sudden, Lingling?"

"So I can make sure you're not sleeping late. Didn't you tell me you always sleep well next to me?"

Nodding slowly, she presses her face at the side of my head, feeling me close. "Because you make me feel safe and full of comfort."

"You too, Nong Orm. You're my safe zone." I take the courage to kiss her forehead gently. When I see her smiling at my kiss, I feel a breath of relief. The gap between us seems to disappear bit by bit. So, I take this chance to make my move,

"Would you come back to our home tonight, Nong Orm?"

"Yes, P'Ling"

That's going to be the beginning of many more "yes" coming from her. I believe so.

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Most people see Orm as someone who is so bubbly and energetic all the time, but I know she can be exhausted, too. And when she does not have energy left, she would be a hundred times more clingy than usual. 

"No, I'm not hungry. Don't move away, P'Ling."

Raising my palms to let her know I had surrendered, I pressed my cheek against hers again and comforted her by massaging her head.

"Are you tired, P'Ling?"

"Hmm?"

"Are you tired of being in this uncertain relationship with me?" Orm tries to search for my eyes but she also does not want to let go of my cheek. So, she does her best to make my heart race. She ends up kissing my cheek so she can look at me, patiently waiting for my answer.

Biting my bottom lip while collecting the thoughts and feelings that I truly have, I follow my heart by gently shaking my head.

"As long as you're within my sight, I can go with the pace that you're comfortable with."

"But what do you want, Lingling?"

She takes both of my hands in hers, playing with my fingers to give me comfort because she knows how hard it is for me to express something with words.

But for this question, I do not even need to think because I respond immediately, "I want you to be my girlfriend. I want to be able to take care of you, to show you my commitment, to love you freely."

Caressing her cheek gently, I can see her pondering a lot and I am determined to find out what's inside her head that she desperately tries to hide from me.

"What stops you from following your heart, Nong Orm?"

Uttering in a soft tone, I want to convey how I just want her to pour out what pains her so she can set herself free. "Why can't we get together, Nong?"

"Are you sure about your feelings for me, P'Ling?" I can see tears start to form in her eyes as she continues, "Are you sure it's not because we need to act as a couple so you're feeling this? I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm doubting you, Lingling."

I kiss her nose softly to let her know I am fine. "I want to hear more from your perspective first, is that alright? Tell me, Nong, why did you ask me that question? What makes you think like that?"

"You know, I'm really blatant about my words and actions, P'Ling. If I love someone, I'd not hide it to the extent other people would also notice that. I'd stare at them openly and lovingly, no matter where we at. I'd say sweet nothings to them, I'd annoy them all the time, I'd text them constantly, I'd want to meet them whenever I get the chance to. I'd let them see my vulnerable side, tell them my biggest secrets. And I do that all with you."

So that means she loves me back?

"I know you're the opposite of me, baby Ling. You take care of me in your own way, in your discreet way. You'd do everything for me but without me knowing, you'd write letters or randomly uttering some romantic lines like in the movies to me. You'd gaze at me lovingly when I'm not looking but look away when I caught you staring. You'd get really jealous but hide it with your smile. You'd eat all the food I prepared for you although you might not like some of the ingredients I put in it. And you'd be protective of me, standing up for me when someone's being too much but acting nonchalant afterward."

My heart warms knowing how she notices every little detail of my affection towards her as I encourage her to continue speaking her mind.

"That's why, sometimes I am confused if it's only your caring nature or if it's something more. Especially when you're not even interested in me at all back then."

That got my attention. "Back then?"

"I've been infatuated with you since I was only seventeen, P'Ling."

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