Letting my love go

Part 6

(According to the people around me, life has to go on)

It's been a month, and I still couldn't get Sean out of my mind, I did go back to work, I'm headed to California for business tomorrow, I'll get to see DJ and his family, I'm looking forward to seeing them. I got my things together and told assistant Ashley it's late I'm leaving she can leave now, and sorry about keeping her here so late I'll see her in the morning, she said she does need to pack for the trip. I told her to get her things, and I'll walk her to her car, she got her things, and we walked to the elevator.

 The elevator doors came open, Reese Ross Alexander was about to get off, he said he was on his way to see me, he spoke to Ashley we got on the elevator, he told me he wanted to see how I'm doing, I told him keeping busy helps. He told me if it's meant for me and Sean it will happen, I wanted to say first gran and Ms. Parker and now him, I told him I haven't heard from Sean, so I have to move on.

He looked at me and said he can hear it in my voice, that I was lying to myself about moving on even though he can see that I'm not. He told me don't give up, we got to the ground floor he asked me did I have everything for my trip, I told him I do, we stepped off the elevator and he told Ashley to help me as much as she can, he said good night he got in his car, and I walked Ashley to her car she got in and drove away.

 I got in my car and got in and drove away too, I didn't want to go to that empty house, I drove to the man's spot and drove around the parking lot hoping maybe Seans car would be in the lot, but it wasn't just wishful thinking on my part. I left and went home, when I got there, I just stood in the living room a house isn't a home without someone to share it with, Dontae is gone, and Sean gave up not only on me but relationships all together.

 I put my briefcase on the foyer tabled and walked in the kitchen, Ms. Parker left a note saying my dinner is in the fridge, I can warm it up myself, and I better eat, or she'll be calling gran to put that belt on me again. I took the plate out of the fridge and put it in the warmer, I went up the backstairs and went to my room I took all of my clothes off, and I went back downstairs butt ass naked, why not no one is ever here but me after Ms. Parker leaves.

Maybe I should sell this place it's too big for one person, gran thought we would have a family to share this house with, but that never happened. I got my plate out of the warmer and ate, this can't be Ms. Parkers pot-roast it tastes just like grans, I called her and thanked her for making the roast. Gran said Ms. Parker just got her recipe she made it, she wanted to make something special for me, she asked me when I leave for my trip, I told her in the morning.

 Gran told me to call her when I get back, we can have dinner, I told her I will, I heard a man's voice saying Mae big daddy's going to eat her kitty, I said bye gran and hung up. Even gran has someone in her bed, I finished eating and washed out my plate and set the alarm and I went upstairs and packed, after I finished, I went into the bathroom and turned on the shower, I remembered my toy is under the sink, I'm past due for something up in me sense Sean walked away from me.

 I got it and stepped into the shower I washed my body and rinsed off, I wet the dildo and slid it in me my hole is tight, I closed my eyes wishing it were Sean, I opened my eyes and pulled it out of me, this isn't what I want. I cleaned it off and stepped out of the shower and I threw it in the trash can, I dried off and went to bed.

After another restless night I got up at sunrise, I got out of bed and got on the side of the bed and knelt down and started praying for everyone I know, and especially Sean, maybe he will come back, and we can start all over again. I'll never make the same mistakes I made with him and be more sensitive towards what he's been through, I got up and walked out on the balcony and said good morning world.