Under the heat of the sunny beach
My thoughts suddenly crumbeled,
They were all out of reach
Out of sight and out of control.
The person i used to be ?
I know her and i feel her.
I recognize her whenever i come by,
Thanks to every corner that holds a reminder.
I went to the red burger's last night,
And it tasted awful.
Has it always been bad ?
Was it good at that time because we were together ?
Or was it bad the other day because i was on my own ?
I can't help but wonder,
Which case scenario would it have been ?
It's the fifth summer already,
And we never went to the beach together.
I sleep on my bed every night since i got here,
The same bed i slept on the night you were about to leave..
When you gave me the scorpio,
And i gave you the ring.
I think of many things,
Fresh Mania and chicken nuggets.
Maybe two things to be more specific..
The third must be the venue of our first kiss.
I've found a new home of my own,
And I'll have a lot of books in there.
I'll buy new fourniture and a king size bed,
And it'll be a place full of love and joy.
I met someone new,
He is so sweet, so caring.
So scared to lose me,
Because he thinks i am that special.
Bold of him to think this way,
Is it really the case i wondered.
Have you ever thought of me this way, i wondered, again
But i choose to think that you never did.
And here i am again,
On the same bed, same sheets
Or maybe not.. it's been a while.
But the same mind and the same heart,
The same longing and the same feelings,
The same fire that's burning me inside
And pushing me to write.
I heard you've found a new job.
Congratulations.
I don't know what else people usually say,
But i know I'd have gotten you a cake back then.
Finally I am not sure this will ever reach you,
I hope not.
I'll just assume that you moved on already,
The way i am trying to
After all what happened.
