ENTANGLED PAIN-TAEKOOK FF🤎

🤎 Chapter Three🤎

Author's pov

Taehyung was now in his basement punching the hell out of his punching bag. The pain he felt in his knuckles blurred in comparison to the frustration and self-hate that was bubbling inside him at the moment.

He didn't even care that his knuckles bled. All this vigorous punching soothed him making calm on the inside at the same time helping him vent out his frustration.

In contrast to the silence of the room, Taehyung let out deep groans accompanied by heavy breathing.

Why can't I just be normal?

Why do you have to be so pathetic?

Is it my fault, that I ended up to his way? If only I was a good boy ...

He punched the bag more, his mind wound up tight with the self-deprecating thoughts that jumbled up in his mind forming a trap that he could never escape from. He didn't deserve happiness; he knew it like the back of his hand. That was the main reason he refused to help himself. he deserved to drown in this tsunami of negative thoughts. The only thing he was ever good at was hurting the people he loved.

The only people that stayed with him all these years despite him being an absolute asshole to them, Jimin and Namjoon. Even them? He didn't deserve them that was why he pushed them away, so that they never get hurt by him. Or even worse he never wants them to see him the way he sees himself. Pathetic!

But oh, they just had to be as stubborn as him, suggesting therapy, getting him a therapist, forcing him to take his medicine down to helping him through his episodes anytime he has them. They made it difficult to push them away, hell they believed he would get better. But, he knew he was never going to get better; He was stuck being miserable and mean all his life and he has learned to live with that.

Just that...... a little part of him still wished he could recover......

Meanwhile 

"So, what should we do?" Namjoon asked Jimin who seemed to be lost in his thoughts.

"Convince him to go to therapy." Jimin said and sighed. He knew It was nearly impossible to get Taehyung to seek help. Taehyung just seemed to have given up entirely. He just wished there was someone who could convince Taehyung that life was worth living again and that all was not lost.

They had tried many times to get Taehyung to take help, but he always ended the conversation before it even starts.

"You know he won't agree. He would either tell us to leave him if we are tired of him. As if we mean nothing to him and that we leaving, will not affect him. " Namjoon said as a matter of fact.

Taehyung was always extremely harsh when it came to his words, it was an undeniable fact. He never really acted on his words at least when it came to all the times, he threatened to kill one of them. They always felt like empty threats, but they knew better than to push him too hard. 

"But that personal therapist has done nothing for him all this while. Sometimes, I think he is responsible for Taehyung's worsening condition." Jimin said but he knew it was not true. They had administered every drug the therapist suggested but Taehyung will never do the assignments that the therapist gave so it never got them anywhere, because those assignments were more important than the drugs.

"Do you think we should try and contact his dad?" Namjoon asked, Jimin had initially mentioned about a dad Namjoon has never heard of or seen, he knew only one dad of Taehyung, and as far as he was concerned, that man was dead.

"Never. Don't even mention his dad in front of him. He hates that man" Jimin said. He has known Taehyung for a long time, and he knew both of them were not on good terms and never will. He clearly remembers the day he asked of Taehyung's parents and the look Taehyung gave him, ooh, it gave him shivers. Taehyung further warned him never to talk about them again and sometimes he thinks they are the ones responsible for Taehyung's trauma. but anyways he had to live with the fact that Taehyung had a new dad.