Letting my love go

Part 9

(Helping our relationship)

I had a session with Doctor Roberts, I told her that Sean is back into my life, she said she knows, he started seeing her again, and before I ask, she can't tell me what they talk about. I told her I won't ask I'm just glad he's seeing her again after what he's been through, she said I'm here to talk about me.

So, Sasha, you told me in our last session that you were able to let Sean share the room you and Dontae once shared, what was the breakthrough for that?

 I knew if I was going to move forward not just in this relationship, but any that I had to let Dontae go, she asked so I'm I really letting go or did I just do it to make Sean feel more comfortable. I told her I really let go, and I did want Sean to feel secure that I have let Dontae go not just for him, but myself I needed it, she said good.

She asked me how I feel about Sean telling me he's HIV undetectable, I said he told her, she said yes, in order for Sean to deal with everything he told her. I told her she knows I had a scare of my own about that, so I educated myself on it, I know what's going on with him being undetectable. I'm going to be there for him and take care of him, she wrote something down.

Sasha, that's good that you want to take care of Sean, but you have to let him do for himself, let him be independent, and don't make him feel that you pity him, that will cause problems, and just support him, have you gone to any of his meetings dealing with what's going on with him.

I told Doctor Roberts I have, and it's helped me as well, and I get to talk to other guys who have partners with HIV, she said good it seems we're both starting our relationship in a healthy way, she looked at the time and said our time is up, she'll see me this same time next Thursday. She gave me my appointment card and I said see her next week and walked out of her office, I saw this fine ass dude in the waiting room, I sat next to him, excuse me but you're so beautiful your partner is a lucky person.

Yes, he is, and I'm pretty blessed myself, the receptionist said Doctor Roberts will see me now, I told Sasha I'll see him at his house later and walked into Doctor Roberts office, I sat down she said from the smile on my face, I saw Sasha on his way out, I told her I did.

So, Sean as we talked about in our last session that you were ready to tell your parents about what's going on with you, he said he thought about it, but he's not sure how they'll take it.

Sean it's not up to them it's you that has to deal with what's going on with you, I think the sooner you tell them you'll feel better, you told me you're not ashamed of anything, so why haven't you told them, you told your cousin, and Sasha.

I know, but Sasha and I are working on our relationship and I had to tell him, and with Robert he's been with me through it all, and once I told Sasha I felt like a burden was off of me, she asked me do I still feel like that with my parents, I told her I do, she said I know what I have to do.

I told her in time I'll tell them, she asked how's the group she recommended to me working out, I told her it really helps, and Sasha has people he can talk to, I'm glad she told me about the group living together as a serodiscordant couple.

Sean, I have a few patients that have a partner with HIV, and the group helped them and from what you're telling me it's helped you and Sasha.

Yes, it has, there's a couple that's been together for ten years, and the other partner knew of his partners status when they met, and there still together, they told the group you love someone rather things are good or bad, remember why you fell in love with that person in the first place, and keep loving that person. I really like the group, but there are sad stories too, one of the females lost her partner from cancer, she comes to the group for support, she has HIV.