MC Devil Dogs #2 I Will Never Love Again.

Spider finds out

Ruby

     I am on my way to talk to Spider.  I decided to go ahead and go to my dad's funeral so I want to tell him before I go.  I have to get it over with so I won't have to worry about it after he knows.  No matter what he says I will love this baby.   I will make a home with my little bean.  Okay I am here, now to get out of the car.  I finally step out and walk to the gate.  The prospects asked me what he can do for me.  I tell him I need to speak to Spider.  I hear someone else say let her through.  I turn to see the guy named Blade standing there.  He says "Hey Ruby go in to the top of the stairs take the last door to the right.  You will find the Prez there."  I thank him and make my way inside.

     I see several of the bikers staring at me with smirks on their faces as I walk through.  I ignore them and make my way up to Spider's room.  I get to the door and see it's not closed all the way.  I peeked inside incase he is still sleeping.  I see Spider wrapped around that blonde girl from the bar.  They are both naked and the smell of sex is in the room.  I turned around and left heading back down.  As I get to my car door Blade ask "Did you find him?"  I answered "Yes, but he was preoccupied so could you tell him I need to speak to him as soon as possible please?"  He nods in agreement but continues to stare at me funny.  I drove off headed home to pack for my trip. 

Spider

     I wake up to still being wrapped up with Cherise.  I wake her up and then get up to get ready for church.  I am running late.  I need to get this over with as soon as possible so I can go see Red.  I need to talk to her and tell her how I feel.  I grabbed a quick shower, threw on some clothes and walked into church just in time.  Blade walks up to me and says he really needs to talk to me after the meeting.  Shit I really need to get out of here.  We go over our business then we take a vote about Jace being a new prospect.  We all agreed to bring him in.  I ajorned the meeting.  I wait until everyone walks out and turn to Blade.  I tell him to make it quick I gotta go.  He tells me that Ruby was here earlier and he sent her to my room.  I started to panic.  He tells me she left pretty quick but asked for him to pass a message.  He tells me she wants to speak to me asap.  I take off running.  I jump on my bike and head to Red's place.  I get there I see she is carrying a bag out.  Shit she is leaving before I can fix this.  "Ruby please don't leave, please." I begged.  She looked at me and says she has to but before she goes she needs to tell me something.  Please don't tell me we are done before we have truly begun.

Ruby

     I see Spider standing there begging me not to leave.  I don't have time for his mind games today.  So I look at him and just laid it out for him.  "Look Spider, I just found out that I am pregnant.  It's yours and I am keeping it.  You can be involved as much as you want or not involved.  I really don't care." I tell him.  He stands there saying nothing.  So I get in my car and head to my father's funeral.

     I was gone for a week.  I went to pay my respects.  I didn't sit with my family.  I stood to the back.  I did have to meet with a lawyer though.  I found out my father had me in his will.  I didn't want to take the money he left me but with the baby coming I needed it.  I need a new car and a home for my baby.  So I took it, I went that day to buy a newer car.  I got me a small house right outside of town.  I offered cash if I could move in next week.  I haven't seen Spider at all since I came back.  However I got to go to the club for Blade and Veronica's wedding tomorrow night so I should see him then.

Spider

     I haven't found Red since the day she told me she is pregnant.  I stood there frozen.  By the time I came to my senses she was gone.  I've had so much club business plus getting ready for Blade's wedding.  I can't go look for her.  I am hoping she will be at the wedding.  I had all these plans to explain to her about what is going on with me.  I stood there that day like an idiot.  I wanted to tell her I love her but I was so shocked.  I always use a condom but I remember that night I did not.  I have no doubt the baby is mine, plus the dream I had.  I can't help to think that Lily was trying to tell me.  Tomorrow can not come soon enough. 

     I wake up the next day.  I had a lot of shit to do today.  I take the last part of the day to practice on officiating Blade's wedding.  I go over it, until I feel I can do this.  I go down stairs and it's crowded already.  I looked around but see no sign of Red.  Man I hope she shows up.  I really need to talk to her.  I need to make her understand me.  I need her to know I love her.   I also want the baby.  I want it all.

Ruby

     Time to go to work little bean.  I head out to the club ready to get tonight over with.  I show up and the place is packed with bikers from other clubs.  This should be a fun night.  I go to the kitchen to start setting up all of my stuff.  Veronica wanted speciality drinks.  I start cutting up lemons and limes.  Someone comes in behind me, I turn to see the blonde girl standing there.  Damn she is pretty.  Just you and me little bean.  I go about doing what needs to be done.  She walks over introduces herself.  I found out her name is Cherise, I tell her my name.  She ask if there is anything she can do to help.  Damn that bitch, I want to hate her.  Oh well I could use some help.  So I tell her a few things to do.  She seems to be a sweet girl.  I could honestly see myself liking her if it wasn't for Spider. 

     The wedding is over in no time and I get busy fast.  Bikers and alcohol is a win win.  I am standing there making drinks, serving beer when a shadow appears over me.  I look up to see the one and only Spider.  So I put on my best smile and ask "What would you like to drink Spider?"

Spider

     Finally the wedding is over and I look around to see Ruby getting stuff ready.  I make my way over to her.  She looks up and smiles at me.  All she ask was what I wanted to drink like she didn't just tell me she was pregnant.  I tell her "Red we need to talk."  She replies "Not now Spider, I am at work."  I get mad because she took off on me.  So I try again "Red I am serious we need to talk!"  Again she ask me "What would you like to drink?'  So I say "Fine a beer."  She opens a beer and as I go to grab it she poors it over my head.  I look around and tell some of the girls to serve the drinks.  I lift Red up and carried her out.  I carry her into my office.  She is pissed, she slaps my face as soon as I sit her down.  I leaned down and kissed her.  I started off gently but then deepened it.  When we pull apart we both grasping for air.  I look into her eyes.  I tell her my truth "Ruby you have broken my cold heart and now it beats again.  It took me awhile but I want to admit that I love you like crazy Red."

Ruby

     I pour the beer over Spider's head.  It felt good.  However it was short lived.  The next thing I knew he picked me up and took me to his office.  He pissed me off.  I slapped him so hard but the fool kissed me.  He finally pulled away and then said he loved me.  I looked up at him, crossed my arms over my chest and said "You love me so much you just had to take Cherise in the bar bathroom to fuck her.  I then came to tell you and you had her in your bed last week ."  I tried to get past him but he refused. 

     He then tells me what's been going on lately.  He tells me about the nightmares and what Lily said in his dream.  He told me how scared he was about loving someone again.  Hell we are both broken individuals who are all alone.  I told him I was scared too.  I didn't want to love again ever.  I told Spider "I love you too and I love our little bean too but I am afraid to lose again."  I started crying and told him "I'm so tired of being alone and angry Jerry."  I leaned my head on his chest and said "I am so tired of hurting."  Spider picked me up and set me on his lap.  He placed his hand on my belly then said "little bean huh?"  He then leaned down and talked to my belly saying "Little bean will you please tell mommy that your daddy wants to love her forever."

Spider

      Soon as I finished talking to our little bean I got up picked Red up.  She wrapped her legs around me and we kissed.  I went to lay her down on the couch and we made love.  I held her face looked into her eyes and I told my woman just how much I love her.  We spent the rest of the night making love.  My sweet Red melted my heart.  I can not wait to see our little bean.  I hope he or she looks just like their mommy with Red hair, green eyes with those beautiful freckles.