𝑺𝑰𝑫𝑬-𝒁 | 𝑶𝒏𝒆-𝑺𝒉𝒐𝒕𝒔 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝑺𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝑺𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔

𝑭𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑭𝒆𝒂𝒓 - 𝑺𝒆𝒖𝒏𝒈𝑳𝒊𝒙 (1/4)

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"Seungmin!"

I heard someone shout my name, snapping me out of thought.

"So?"

The voice asked.

"Hm?"

I looked up at them confused and with a sorry look because I could tell from their tone that they were slightly disappointed by my lack of attention toward them.

"Sorry, I just-"

I spoke fast, trying to apologize for my behavior.

"It's fine Seungmin. I was just asking if you'd like to come with me to my friend's party. It's his birthday and I wanted you to meet my other friends. I know it's not exactly your thing but, I thought it'd be a good way to interact with people again. Not many people will be there, just us and maybe four other people plus my friend that the gathering will be at."

Hyunjin spoke slowly and softly for me to understand. I nodded slowly as he spoke.

"Well... Sure, since there won't be many people, I'll go with you."

Hyunjin smiled and slowly hugged me as a thanks.

"Thank you, Minnie, I thought you were going to say no."

He pulled away from me slowly and gave me a bright smile.

"Mr. Trisey said I should start interacting with people again and to start small so, maybe your friend's gather should be a good place to start."

I patted his shoulder.

"I think you'll have fun, I'll text you when and where, okay?"

I nodded and Hyunjin left. I sat back down on my couch, proud of myself, I'm slowly making progress, I didn't flinch when Hyunjin hugged me, so, I hope I can make it through his friend's party too.

~Time Skip: 4 days~

I got out of my car nervously, and stood there staring at the house.

"Should I go in?"

I asked myself while fidgeting with my keys.

 I felt a hand on my shoulder which made me scream at the top of my lungs, as I backed away I tripped on my own shoe and fall back, I scrambled to get up before I heard a soft voice.

"Are you okay? I didn't meant to scare you."

The unfamiliar voice spoke, I looked up still shaken and embarrassed by the situation.

"Uhm, Yeah I-"

I was interrupted by a worried Hyunjin that rushed out of the house and toward me.

"Minnie! Are you okay? What happened?"

He looked at me with fear and worry, checking to see if I was okay, He turned to the unfamiliar boy.

"Lix, this is the friend I told you about, Seungmin."

Hyunjin's words must've meant something to the other boy because he immediately apologized, I guess they've discussed me before, I stood up, slightly embarrassed.

"Sorry, If I had known who you were, I wouldn't have touched your shoulder, I was just checking to see if you were okay, you were standing there kind of out of it."

The boy Hyunjin referred to as "Lix" explained his reasons for touching my shoulder.

"No, It's okay, it happens sometimes, I get startled a little to easily."

I shook my head as he explained,

"Well, uhm, should we all go in?"

The boy motioned for me and Hyunjin to go to the door, Hyunjin reassured me that everything would be okay and walked next to me as we went in. I felt my nerves going crazy, sweat taking over my hands, I felt my face getting hot, I hadn't been around many people In a long time, this was just an experiment, an assignment given to me by my therapist in order to help me heal and be myself again.

It's been two years since my accident, and I still can't get over it. I can't be touched without having a panic attack, I can't be hugged without flinching, I can't be spoken to without shaking, I can't sleep without having nightmares about those two months, I can't go out in public without seeing him... them, I can't leave my house without thinking I'm better off dead, I can't apologize like a normal person without blaming myself for everything and hurting myself over it, I can't have a conversation without thinking the other person is angry and hates me or wants me dead, I can't make a mistake, I can't stop blaming every single thing on myself,  I can't be a human without breaking more than I already am. 

I sat next to Hyunjin as he talked with his other friends, I felt out of place. 

"I don't belong here... who am I kidding? I should leave. Nobody will notice right?"

I thought to myself as I watched Hyunjin having fun with his friends, everyone smiling and laughing and having a good time while I'm here, in the corner,  pathetic.

I looked around before finally taking my leave, knowing nobody would notice.

I drove myself to my favorite place, the gardens behind the park. I sat by the lake and watched the geese and ducks swim, the lake was clear and as the sun light hit, it looked like a lake made of pure, liquid gold, I left out a sigh, this is the only time I can feel peace. I sat and listened as the birds chirped, as the water flowed, and as the leaves rustled.

"Hyunjin said you'd be here."

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To Be Continued...

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this is  a 4 part short story, I hope you will enjoy my one-shots and short storiez the way I enjoy writing them.

"Storiez" is misspelled on purpose btw