Alpha Theo (Book 2/3)

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***LOTS OF FEELS!***

Theo POV

It's been 6 months since we found Erin. Nick is now 8 months and crawling around. I'm depressed to say the least. My dad has taken over the pack again temporarily until I get my state of mind right.

"Theo. Eat something." I look up from my cold and still mate, the only sound of her even alive is the heart monitor.

"I'm not hungry." I reply to my mother and look back at Erin. With Nick I haven't forgotten him once. I'm the only one that's been looking after him. Yeah my mum or Alice or Taylor take him for a while so I can freshen up but not for long.

"Fine. Be stubborn then." She huffs and walks out the room. The doctor said we can't keep her on life support for longer then 10 months.

"Come on baby. Wake up. You've got 2 months before they cut the life support. Please. Please. Please wake up. Nick needs you. Your family needs you. The pack need you. Taylor needs you. I need you. So please wake up baby girl. I love you." I say and a few tears slip.

****1 and a half months later ***

"Come on Erin baby. Please. U have 2 weeks left. Do it for Nick and me. Please. I'm dying. I can feel you slipping away with every passing day. It's killing me." I say to her cold body as Nick plays with Taylor's pup Samantha on the floor in my room.

"I think it's time we start thinking of when to cut the machines off." Taylor and the doctor discus. I growl lowly at that.

"Just ignore him." I hear Taylor whisper. I zone out of the rest of the conversation. I focus on Erin and only Erin.

****2 weeks later****

"Everybody needs to start saying goodbye. We need to cut the machines in 2 hours." The doctor says.

I'm dead. I have no emotion left. I feel nothing. I'm dead. The only reason I'll have to live is because of Nick. But then I don't think I can carry on. He was 1 a few days ago.

I took him to go and see Erin and I took him out. I pretended to be happy when it was killing me to be away from Erin. I couldn't stand it and o hated every minute of it. Not the fact that my little boy turned one. The fact his mummy didn't see it. His first time crawling. His first birthday. His first everything.

"You guys go first. I want to go last." I say emotionally as I sink to the floor with Nick in my lap.

"Dada." I lookup shocked to hear bucks first word. I smile slightly and everyone else smiles. I hug Nick and he hugs me back.

"I'll go first." Alice says. Her and Adam go in and I just focus on Nick that has now fallen asleep on my lap.

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Alice POV

"Hey little sis. Your not going to believe what just happened. Nick said his first word. It was dada. It was the first time I've seen Theo give an actual genuine smile in a year. I miss you loads. Not having my little sister to gossip with and talk about my problems with. Knowing you won't judge. Oh and I'm pregnant. I found out last week. I'm really going to miss you. I love you Erin and I wish I could of seen you walking down the isle with dad to give you away. But that won't happen. I love you Erin. Good bye." I kiss her forehead and let the tears spill. Ryker engulfs me in a hug and guides me out the room.

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Erin POV

"I love you Erin. Good bye." I hear Alice say. Come on Erin. Wake the fuck up would you women. I have two fucking hours.

"Hey. Not much to say apart from the fact that Samantha is growing to be a really strong little girl and that me and Adam are engaged. I want you to be my maid of honour but that won't happen now. Your my best friend and you always will be. Love you chika." I feel a peck to my forehead and a warm liquid.

After everyone says nearly the same thing with slight variations Theo and Nick come in.

"Hey baby. Nick said his first word. Dada. I'm so proud yet sad you've missed so much. His first birthday. His first word. His first time crawling. I know you probably can't hear me but I love you Erin Collins. Forever and always. Nothing will change that." He says.

I can hear you baby. I can and I wish I could see you both now.

"Nick. That's your mummy right there. Say something." Then says softly and quietly.

"Hi mama." I hear a soft voice and I want to smile but can't. I won't to see my baby boys before I go. That's my one wish. To see them before I go. That will never happen. I will never see my family again. I will never see Nick take the alpha title. I will never be able to ground him for some reason. I'll never be able to get me dad to walk me down the isle so Theo can put a ring on my finger. So much I wanted to do but couldn't.

I was with Theo for 6 months before this and now I just want him to hold me and kiss me and for me to be able to see him.

"It's time." I hear the doctor say. NO! PLEASE NO! I need to see them. Give me some more time. Please.

"Ok." I hear Theo say quietly.

"I love you baby girl. I won't ever forget about you and I will never move on even if you want me to. I never will. Your my soul mate and I won't ever love someone more then I love you." I feel a kiss on my forehead and warm liquid on my skin.

No. Please. Please don't go.

"Good bye Erin. I'll always love you. Forever and always." Then I hear the flick of the switch and the darkness soon starts to consume me. I hang on for as long as possible before I flat line.

***

Theo POV

She's gone. I've lost my mate. I had Nick to my mum and run outside. I shift and howl with all my might at the lose of my mate. My one try love.

I collapse at the pain in my chest and whimper softly.

"Dada?" I look up and see my mum with Nick. She puts him down and Nick runs over. He hugs my fur and I know he feels the lose of his mother to.

I just lie there whimpering for hours and hours with Nick. He finally fell asleep but I make no attempt to move. I focus on Nick and not the suicidal thoughts.

'I can't die. I must live for Nick!' I tell myself and my wolf. My wolf has detached himself from me and isn't talking. All I can hear is his soft whimpers in my head. The pack came outside and are watching me and Nick.

I ignore them all and focus on the night sky above me. I see one star shining brightly and know that from this day on. I will come out and look at that start. Knowing its Erin.

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A/N This was such a sad chapter to write. I cried when I wrote it. That was the last chapter. I'm afraid to say. There will be an epilogue sometime this weekend, Probably Sunday. Hope you liked the sequel of MMAAB.

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