Heart's hand tucked between her thighs, her thumb finger grazing against each other clearly showing signs of uneasiness, I could hear her soft mourns and she lifted her head to look at me, our eyes met and her mouth slightly opened, she was about to say something but swallowed it back and stared at the wall in-front of her.
I paid attention to what she was gonna say, "I should resent you...But I can't." Heart muttered and I felt my body ache.
Suddenly, I was not okay. It came from her, a bright, bubbly girl and even though it wasn't spoken with hatred, with such a deep word 'resent' was lethal to me. For me, words inflict more scars than my father's swords.
Resent me? For what? Did the man I left back at the sidewalk took revenge on them? And why does she can't? "What do you mean?" I asked. I needed clarity.
She remained silent for a minute and even though I wanted an answer, I let her sink from her thoughts before I could say something stupid. "Everything's my fault—-" Heart sobbed in high pitch and she opened her mouth slightly, waiting for words to pour out.
"I was too naive——I thought, I——had it."
I remained silent, weaving my thoughts between those words.
"Because of me, my bestfriend might die."
I clicked my tongue, "She won't. The doctors are doing their best and she will survive." I said.
"How can you be certain?"
I couldn't find the correct words again. If I tell her to just remain positive, it would create a dilemma, a beacon that can never be certain.
Fuck, I took her pale hand and gripped it firmly, "She'll be alright." I said again. This time, as if I was trying to convince her. I don't care if this falls into my conscience if Jane actually dies and I created a false hope for Heart.
"Will she really be?"
What if the doctors couldn't save Jane? I couldn't be too optimistic, but for the first time I hoped too, I nodded my head in resistance and bit the side of my mouth.
I reached out to my pants and took out my phone, opened this messenger app and pressed the video on the top right of the group chat.
I called the employees from our group chat, the phone rang them and within 4 seconds, Steffani was the first to enter, "Gandang gabi Jazz?" Steffani wondered and looked closely at the phone, "Bakit anjan si Heart?"
Bhoszxc Vhinzxc and 2 other staffs shortly joined adding new screens to the phone, "Nag-eem el ako eh!" Ani Bhoszxc Vhinzxc.
"We're at James Memorial hospital. Jane is in critical condition." I said.
I saw how their faces changed in shock, saw how they panicked and their faces came off contact, I could only hear mumbles and rustling of the KopiKopi, the background darkened and the next thing was they were out of their aprons, inside a car where they drove dangerously.
"Papunta na kami, anong nangyari sakanya?"
I glanced at Heart, again, she's still rubbing her thumbs together and she looks totally lost. I wanted to know why she wants to resent me but cast that off aside, her emotions would be my priority.
"Just go here. Room 32 Emergency room. She needs your presence." I said and hung up the phone. The room befell into silence again and I looked at Heart and I think I could be confident with my words this time.
