It's not falling in love that I fear of. It's falling in love for the same person who broke me. I tried to stay away from him... but it wasn't enough. Almost is never enough.
"Miss Parker please exchange seats with Miss Santos"
"Earth to Miss Buenaventura, hello?!"
"Sorry ma'am."
"Pack your things and exchange seats now."
I was too bored to even pay attention to my Math teacher, who is unfortunately my moderator.
After the class, it was already our lunch time and I chose to sleep rather than to socialize and eat with people.
"Are you not going to buy something for lunch?"
That voice. It's him.
I suddenly felt cold. I was literally stoned in my place. I couldn't move.
"I-I.. I'm fine here." What? Where did that come from? Ugh.
"What?"
"I mean, no. I'm not going to buy."
"Well then, where's your lunch?"
"None.." I answered unconsciously
"Would you like some of my lunch, then? It's not good to skip meals you know."
"No thank you... I'm fine."
Well that was weird. It's like there's a hidden meaning behind that statement.
Class dismissed and I'm about to go home when suddenly..
"Can I accompany you on your way home?"
Being shocked for the second time, I agreed. "Yes, sure"
Gaining all the courage, I finally asked him, "Why are you so nice to me so suddenly?"
Well it wasn't my fault to ask that for he.. he.. He left me. All of a sudden, he left me hanging.
"Why? is it bad to be nice to my friend?"
I stopped hearing his words.
"Am I really your friend?"
"Yes of course"
"Does a friend leave you? Does a friend suddenly stay away from you?"
And now it's his time to be shocked. "Zoe.."
"I know we're more than friends back then. We acted way too much for being labeled as friends or even as bestfriends."
"I can explain.."
"No, Troy. I've had enough, and if that explanation of yours can lead me to be broken for the nth time then goodbye."
I rushed on the way home and left Troy. It suddenly rains and as the first drop touched my skin, my tears fell.
I'm sorry. I know I should've listened to your explanation but I'm too scared. You know I never fall out of love with you since you left me. I'm scared to be the only one feeling like this. I know that if I fall.. there's a chance that you'll catch me this time, but.. the thought of you leaving me again causes me angst.
