"Happy Cyrus?" Maya asked me right after I walked out of the office. I looked at her and rolled my eyes, "yeah I am, got to wipe that cocky grin off his stupid fucking face." I replied while looking at her. "Your cute when your mad asshat." I looked at before walking to my locker I turned my head letting her watch me leave.
"Hey what the fuck." She murmured follow me pushing my back before I reached my locker, I turned and looked at her. "What maya? Was riding him not enough.?" I said in a cocky tone grabbing my books out of the locker. I saw her expression turned from anger to slight sadness she looked down and kicked her feet gently.
"Why do you get to be sad." I snarled, she looked up at me with slight tears running down her face. I watched her and then shook my head, "maya I'm not an option." I began to say while she looked at me. "oh so it's okay for me to be one.?" She looked at me and I laughed before looking at her. "You never fucking were one." I responded before walking past her starting to walk towards the stairs going up.
"Cyrus you're seriously gonna act like this?" She scoffed I couldn't help but laugh and walk back down the stairs I pinned her against the wall looking down into her hazel eyes, I looked around before lifting her chin kissing her passionately but softly. "Just don't have sex with him please maya." I mumbled feeling tears fill my eyes my head rested on her forehead I looked at her before walking up the stairs and down the other stairwell seeing Gavin and Megan.
"Why so gloomy bitch" Megan asked me while I sat down next to her shaking my head. "Girl shit" I replied and she pushed my shoulder shooting me a dirty look. "Oh no Cyrus having girl problems what a shame" Gavin mumbled In his sarcastic tone. A pit formed in my stomach I looks down at my hands rubbing my thumbs together gently and slowly my head was aching and I could feel tears began to form in my eyes, I didn't want to cry not infront of them. "I don't want to be with Bianca anymore." I finally mumbled I finally grew the courage to look back into Gavin's eyes without tears falling down my cheeks.
"Why?" Megan asked me handing me a can of Pepsi, the cold touch of the drink pressing my fingers were relieving it felt like I could finally breathe. I took one deep breath before resting my head on the wall. All I could think about was her maya. They probably slept together. She doesn't like me. I ruined it. I'm a bad person. I'm not enough. I love you. I looked at my two closest friends not being able to respond. Maya. Her body, her eyes, her hair, her face, her nose. "I-" words began to form in my mouth but I couldn't find ways to tell them. Maya. Her laugh. her touch. her smile. Her warmth. "I just can't do this fake shit anymore. She doesn't love me dude." I looked at Megan then glanced at Gavin.
"Are you sure." Megan asked me looking me in my eyes and I nodded my head slightly up and down agreeing with her before resting my head back down on the wall. I smiled and closed my eyes.
4 months prior.
"CYRUS STOP.." maya yelled at me while I took pictures of her from my phone, she was wearing my clothes cause hers got wet from the rain. "I don't think I will, like you said "take a picture it will last longer". She started to run out of my room, I tossed my phone on the bed before chasing after her. She was already down the hallway trying to lock me out of the bathroom.
"NO MAYA" I yelled, her laughs echoed throughout the house. "Haha you can't get me" she teased, her voice and laughs made my cheeks fluster. I ran to the bathroom holding it open before she fell on the bathroom floor, I heard a thud and swung the door open getting on my knees in front of her while she held her head. "Hey are you okay" I looked at her concerned, I moved my hands to her cheeks kissing her gently. She smiled letting go of her head and kissing me back getting on my lap her thighs were next to me and I held one of them in my palm.
She embraced it, I kissed her again before resting my head in her chest. "What about Bianca." She asked I wanted to tell her it was fake I wanted to tell her it was our dad's arrangements. "I need you, I want you." I replied.
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"CYRUS" Megan yelled snapping me out of my gaze, I glanced at her and smiled before grabbing my can of Pepsi and walking all the way down the stairs well. I walked into the main entrance of the school, Nate was standing next to maya, I looked at her and then at Nate before smirking. "Fucking play boy" I said loud enough for them to hear me, I watched maya stare at me while I walk away. Her eyes could catch my gaze any day, I admired her before bumping into Bianca.
"Hey I was looking for you" Bianca said to me.
"Yeah we need to talk" I replied she tried to grab my arm and I crossed them shaking my head. "No Bianca." I looked at her keeping a stern look. She laughed and tried to grab me again. "Don't be dumb Cyrus." She said I pushed her off me laughing.
"Don't touch me Bianca we are done this is done, I don't need you and I don't need this I'm not your toy." I snapped and she scoffed pushing me slightly, she started to walk away and I walked to the cafeteria seeing Nate have his hand on mayas waist. He made direct eye contact then looked away. Then a familiar pair of hazel eyes met mine and her face dropped.
I looked at her feeling my heart sink, I watched her slap his hand and look at me I looked at the marks on her neck. My marks. I just watched her feeling my heart break thinking of how he touched her.
