What am I doing with my life ? That's not how it was supposed to be ! I was supposed to be in London working as a teacher or be a writer in that city but here i am making burgers for a living, which is not bad but i wanted something else in life.
It is 9 pm, how can it be so warmer in the bus than it is outside ?
I am all sweaty, my legs hurts from standing up all day and the walking, i really need a long warm shower.
It is summer 2024, this summer is not as pleasant as the last one or in 2022, or in 2021...
I'm back in Paris, i have a new job, new collegues, new crush, but the memories they never leave you, right? They hunt you all your life until you learn how to live with them.
Three more stops and then I can go to the shop, I'll have to buy 4 beers tonight, I can have two tonight and two tomorrow since I don't work the next day.
One deep breath before entering the building and make sure to have a smile on my face.
Mum knows right away when I will be inserting the keys in the key whole, she opens the door right away eager to hear what happened at work today, there is always something going on, everyday, different drama and gossip. Sometimes it is funny and sometimes not but the work environnement is not bad, actually better than what i expected when i joined in three months ago.
My collegues are really nice and friendly. A few already left for holydays, some because University will start soon. I think that's where I start to think? I am the oldest amongst the girls, a couple of them are married, some are still studying or have side jobs including this one and i have no goals or purpose.
I ... I just exist.
Comparing myself to others is not going to change my life, i can't blame anyone but myself. I took these decisions and I can't allow myself to regret but what if...
What if I never left University ...
What if Covid never happend ...
What if I would not have gone to England during Covid ...
What if i would have not met him ....
What if we would have met in a different universe.... where life would have been easier for me.
This is the last sip before I close my laptop and go to sleep, tomorrow I will have to face my collegues with the same fake smile, be social and happy and make the same burgers.
That's alright, I chose this.
I'll deal with it tomorow....
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Romansa26 years old Kushi, starts to overthink and asks herself " at which point everyting went wrong ? " Come with me and explore the what if things went the way she hoped. DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction, not intented to harm anyone. The picture...
