Love.
Is love truly what it seems?
Never.
Does that mean that you can't try to be in love?
No.
Is this just me talking to myself in my mind because I truly have no one?
Yes. Yes it is.
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As I gaze at the ceiling and inspect the cracks in the paint, my mind is racing with thoughts. I truly just crave silence. I've never known silence in my mind. Only for one simple reason.
My mind is my only source of social interaction.
Is all my words and thoughts all in my mind and never physical?
Yes, but for the simply fact of how i lost faith in reality. Lost faith that people are truly genuine. I have never met someone as genuine and honest as my own mind.
Over time, I have learned to not to depend on anyone but myself. Due to the fact no one intentions are truly pure and sincere.
Therefore, It's all in my mind.
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Waking up the next day was never a blessing for me. I always found it dreadful. That's seems dark but it's true. I only pray to god that he will end my suffering. But he has chose to keep me here longer. Who am I to judge God's plan and timing? But what I can judge is the fact that I sound emo.
I never enjoyed when people assume that I'm emo. Because I'm not.I like bright colors, and i would love to be happy once more in my lifetime before I go. But I simply cannot and that is something I cannot control. There isn't nothing I hate more than being stuck in my own head. And being stuck in this cycle of pain. But it seems I cannot escape it.
And I truly crave that's this is all in my mind.
M.V.
