i am so tired,
but i don’t want to close my eyes
even just for a second
because i feel like
time’s being wasted when i
take a pause
to breathe.
and i know it’s wrong.
i just can’t help it.
i can’t seem to change that,
though i am fully aware that it’s totally fine
to rest from time to time
to regain my energy.
it’s just that
my mind can’t understand that.
it won’t stop bugging me
to do something.
i always feel like
i am running out of time.
i think it’s because my biggest fear
is to be left behind.
and so i will do everything,
run if i must,
just to be sure that
i am one step ahead of everybody,
’cause i know that it’s easy for them
to accelerate if they want to.
and i can’t do that.
worries, doubts and regrets
live rent-free in my head.
and i can’t seem to find a way to
get back the keys of their room from them,
and tell them that
i’ve had enough.
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Found This Book Somewhere In The Forest
Poetry"Talk to my soul later midnight, when the moon's at its peak. That's the only way of communication that I know, because my physical lips will stutter if I told you about how I want to tear my human skin apart and go out."
