Mom
Seeing mom scares me
Seeing mom makes me sad
Seeing mom makes me miserable
Seeing mom hurts me
Seeing mom makes me sad
But when I don't see mom... when I lower my head to look at the floor...
She gets upset
Because I don't see her
Because I ignore her
Because I don't appreciate all the effort she puts in
Because I throw up what she feeds me
Because I hit, burn, and cut the body she gave me
Because I'm too sore to live
When I turn my look to the floor she tells me angrily;
"Your only obligation is to study"
"You never value what I give you"
"I'll give you a real reason to cry"
"I gave you life and I'm going to take it away from you"
"You don't have any real problems"
"i've suffered more than you"
"You hate me right? that's why you act like this"
And those words hurt me a lot, I try to be the best kid a mom would want but she never notices my efforts!
It Hurts to know my mom thinks i hate her
It hurts that I'm never enough for her
It hurts when she hits me and yells at me
It hurts when she wishes to have another kid because I'm not enough
Oh dear mother!
Have mercy on this immature child who only knows how to cry and be a load for everyone!
Will you have a bit of compassion and hug me when you hear my tears falling down?
Or you'll do the same as always and yell till
all your love and sympathy burns...?
I'm sorry to say that I don't recognise you anymore, at some point you stopped being youself and turned into someone else, or maybe you always acted like this and i just didn't notice when i was younger!
May someone give me back my blindness that i had when i was just a kid?
trying to get recognition from someone who doesn't like you is a method of torture,
without even noticing, you've already k¡lled yourself just to get that empty recognition.
Mom,
I'm sorry
for existing.
