Our Real Dream Island (BFB AU)

Insanity

((a/n: please send help im making a depressing ahh part with happy ahh music in the background i cant do this PLEASEEEE😭😭😭😭 sorry i vented))

((another a/n: its time to make everyone depressed CHATT 😋😋😋😋))

((btw chapters might take longer since motivation is down and school sucks + this chapter is shorter becuase of lack of motivaiton obvi UHH i promise itll fet better))

Loser sat there for a moment, thinking of what to write. He stared at the blank page, trying to get ideas. He picked up the pen and started writing, it felt like he was on auto-pilot

"I dont feel like writing "Dear Diary" for the first part, this thing isn't even living, so why should I?  Maybe I should just call this a journal. That's besides the point, life is starting to get a bit better, I guess. I've felt better than before, just slightly." He stared at what he wrote, confused on how he wrote that without thinking.

"I miss them tho. I miss my old team, I don't know why. They always payed attention to me, yes, I didn't want that attention, sure, but that doesn't mean I dont miss em. They were fun to be around, even if they went insane at me just, existing. I wonder how they're doing. Hopefully they're fine."

He closed the journal, not wanting to write anymore than he has. He stared at the cover of the journal in awe.

'Why do things have to be like this. Why do I have to be like this. Out of all people, I've probably hurt more than I can count. Emotionally or physically, probably emotionally.' 

'Out of all people, why me? Why me. Why did I not listen to Winner? Why did I just get all the fame, attention, and spotlight, and leave Winner to get none of that.' He set the journal aside, 

'I guess people WERE right. I am a real loser, aren't I?'

Leafy kept breaking small pieces off of twigs, trying to keep her attention on something other than hee thoughts. She looked around seeing if Firey was around, but he wasn't. 'He's just getting some yoyleberries or something.. he's fine, perfectly fine! Right Leafy? Are you SURE he's not hurting himself again? Are you really sure? Why look at that, that's not being nice is it! Oh, but people think I'm JUST ACTING! I try to be nice and wow, people STILL think I'm gonna hurt them!' She stared at the pieces of the broken twig, a small smile forming on her face

'Well, if they all think its a damn act why can't they confront me about it? They only did it once, and never again! Every time I "act" nice around them, why don't they say "Hey Leafy, are you just pretending to be nice?" Oh, they're SCARED? Why should they be scared? I'm the nice one!'

Her thoughts stopped when she heard leaves and twigs snapping, She looked over to where the noise came from and saw Firey. "Oh, hey Firey" He gave her a small wave and smiled slightly. "I have a question for you, do you think I'm just pretending to be nice? Its all just a act? That I'll be rude at any chance I get?"

He stared at her in shock and confusion, "Wha- No! Of course not Leafy! You're one of the nicest people I've met!" Leafy laughed a bit at his response, 

"Oh, well some people would say the opposite! They think I'm the one playing the damn act!" 

"Well tell them to fuck off and move on with life or whatever" He responded a bit tired, Leafys expression softened a bit. "Did you even get any sleep" "Yeah- I did" 

"Well seems like you didn't" 

Firey flinched slightly, feeling a bit uneasy at Leafys tone. "Are- are you alright? You're acting.. different toda-"

"Of course I'm fine! Why do you think I'm not?" She grinned slightly, Firey thought she was insane (OBVIOUSLY), he took a step back, shivering slightly. "Well, if you say so.. I'll just get some yoyleberries or something." 

Firey walked away, not turning back. He was too scared to actually go back and talk to her. 

'Why is she acting like this?  She never has before. What overcame her? She's fuckin insane now.. Should I just not think about it that much?  Probably.'  Obviously he still thought about it. He started picking yoyleberries off of a bush, trying to clear his head. 

'Can things be normal. Just for once in my life, can everyone be happy and not hurt themselves more than they have. Or.. I have, for that matter..'

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ehh sorry cliffhanger i guess kidna

im tired

THIS TOOK ME SO LING FOR NO REASON I SWEARR its lack of ideas

ill try and finish anither chapter... sometime soon ig

800+ words aint half bad right? right ok

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