I'm Not A Guy (INTERSEX || GXG)

CAPITULO 31: Damn, You! Hybrid!

"Kuya, I told you! She's alive! I saw her!" My words came out in a rush, as I paced back and forth in the living room, my free hand shaking as it brushed against my forehead.

There was a long pause on the other end of the line, and I could feel my heart pounding in my chest, waiting for him to say something, anything.

[Kia, calm down, okay?] His voice was gentle but firm, trying to steady me, but it only made me feel more desperate. [I know you're still moving on from her, pero Kia, she's dead. Namamalikmata ka lang ata.]

"NO!" I shouted, my voice cracking as I stopped pacing and gripped the phone tighter. "She touched me, Kuya! I felt her, she's real, she's alive! Please, you have to help me find her! please naman! hindi ako delusyonada!"

I could hear him sigh on the other end, and it made my heart sink. [Kia... please... move on. Mahirap pero kailangan mo umusad. I'm sorry, sis... busy ako ngayon...]

The finality in his voice hit me like a punch to the gut. I shook my head, refusing to believe what he was saying, but the tears were already welling up in my eyes.

"No, Kuya, please..." My voice was barely above a whisper now, all the fight drained out of me. But he was already gone, the line clicking dead in my ear.

I sat down heavily on the couch, my legs giving out from under me as the phone slipped from my hand and landed softly on the cushion beside me. My head fell into my hands, fingers tangling in my hair as I tried to steady my breathing, but the frustration and disbelief were too much.

Si Kuya lang ang iniisip ko na makakaintindi sakin pero ngayon wala na ata makakaintindi sakin. Everyone thinks I'm crazy. Sinubukan ko naman sabihin sa iba pero parepareho lang ang mga sinasabi nila. Like, dala lang daw ito ng trauma ko and I'm just hallucinating. Stupid!

"Why won't anyone believe me?" I whispered to myself, the tears spilling over and trailing down my cheeks. "Do I look like a baliw na?"

The room felt too quiet now, the silence pressing in on me, making the absence of Sage even more unbearable. I curled up on the couch, hugging my knees to my chest, as if trying to make myself as small as possible, trying to disappear into the cushions.

But no matter how tightly I squeezed my eyes shut, how hard I tried to block out the world, I couldn't escape the feeling that she was out there somewhere, with the woman who violated her. Hindi ata ako makakatulog knowing na si Naomi ang kasama niya the worst is Why?! Why is she with her?! and Why she don't even remember me!

Right now.

I just needed someone to believe me.

I WOKE UP BEFORE the sun came up, still thinking about yesterday's talk with Kuya Kenny. My heart felt heavy, filled with uncertainty and the clear image of Sage in my mind. No matter how much I tried, I couldn't shake the feeling. It was more than just a dream or my imagination-it felt real, and it wouldn't go away.

But today wasn't just any ordinary day. Today was Hope's first day of school, and I needed to set aside my own worries, even if just for a little while, to focus on her. She needed me, and I couldn't let her down.

I quietly got out of bed, being careful not to wake anyone else, and headed to her room. The early morning light was just starting to come through the curtains, softly lighting up her small figure as she slept in her bed. I paused for a moment, watching her chest gently rise and fall with each peaceful breath.

A wave of calm washed over me, even if it was just for a brief moment, as I looked at her. She was my everything, my reason to keep going.

Baby...your hybrid mommy is here...but she's so different like a whole different person.