Never Truly Alone

Part 1

I wander around in the woods trying to clear my head. There is too much going on right now and I just want to scream or punch something. I swing at a tree and I hit it with a crack I hear someone coming up behind me and I turn around to see Jeremy standing there leaned against a tree.

"Hey"
"Hey"
"What's up?"
"Just walking through the woods to clear my head. You?"
"Same"
"I'm gonna head home......you wanna...come with?" I say nervously.
"Oh uh..... yeah."
I nod as we start walking to my house.
Once we get to my house I lead him to my room and we sit on the floor infront of my bed and hand him a sketch book and a pencil.

He's sitting next to me and I can practically feel his body heat. I wish he was closer so without thinking I barely scooch over. And I look up at him noticing the way his hair falls over his eyes and the way his long eyelashes flutter as he blinks and his eyes focused on his drawing. I let my eyes graze down and I see his biceps through his t-shirt and his large hands gripping the small pencil, intensely drawing.
"Sorry for being weird." I look at Jeremy's face as his eyes meet mine. "I just didn't want to be alone today."
I can't help but blush as I stare into his eyes. I feel like my whole body is on fire. His dark brown eyes light up as he looks into mine and I freeze. God this boy is going to kill me.

I look away turning my face to hide my blush.

"Uh- thanks Jere for uh being here."
"We may not have the best history and we have our fair share of disagreements but we've been through a lot together and I know how it feels to lose a parent. you're my friend even though we've beat the shit out of each other sometimes. That's in the past. And I- I care about you Ty."

My face heats up and I move my legs from my cross legged position and our thighs brush together and I look up at Jeremy and I see what I think is a light blush forming on his face. The slight touch of our thighs is driving me crazy.

"I care about you, too."
We make eye contact again and I can't help but glance down to his lips. And back to his eyes. Back down to his lips. I want to kiss him but 2 things go through my mind. What if he doesn't want to kiss me and I'm just in my head. The second thing being my dad. He's gone now but I still have the fear he instilled in me hanging at the back of my mind along with his words. 'Quit crying like a faggot and get up.' I still have the scar on my thigh from the glass. I refuse to let it heal.

I feel Jeremy lean forward and my breath hitches. His face barely an inch away from mine.

"Ty I- ohh fuck it." Jeremy lets these words leave his lips before planting them on mine. I freeze unsure if I should let this continue but when I feel his hands in my hair, I kiss back. I place a hand on his bicep, squeezing it and placing my other hand on the back of his neck pulling him closer to me. Kissing him is just like kissing a girl except so much better. I could feel all these emotions and put them into the kiss. I pull away and drag his bottom lip between my teeth before resting my forehead against his.

"Wow." I pant out trying to catch my breath.
"Why didn't we do this before"
"I don't want to talk about that right now."

Half of me wants to run and hide pretending that this never happened feeling threatened by having to come home to my father finding out I kissed a boy. I wouldn't be able to handle it. But then I remember.... He cant hurt me anymore. Not only is he dead, but I'm a wolf now and I'm stronger than I ever was.

Almost as if he was reading my mind Jeremy whispers "it's okay."

He pulls back placing a kiss on my forehead and I lean into him and lay my head on his shoulder.
"Sorry if I'm awkward about this" I motion between us. "I've never.... "

"Been like this with a guy?" Jeremy asks.
"Yeah. My dad... he uh-"
"We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to."
"Thank you." I snuggle into him closer and he wraps his arm around me.
"Will you stay with me tonight?" I blush as I realize how that sounded. "I-I just mean like will you stay here with me. I don't want to be alone."
Jeremy lets out a laugh. "I knew what you meant Ty."
I blush and hide my face in his neck.
"You're so adorable."
I sit up and give him a mock offended expression. "Am not!"
"Yes you are" Jeremy says leaning forward and kissing me again. Jesus the way this man kisses is gonna kill me.