No-one does it worse

Chapter one- part one

God damn it.

Ruth thought as she slumped into her chair ,that was right at the side corner of the class , she has forgotten her stupid history essay paper! she has pulled an all nighter just to finish it, not like she was going to get any sleep in either way but she usually just stayed up watching something or listening to music; basically not wasting her energy however last night she wrote down everything she knew about the bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, she even bothered writing it down neatly but oh god forbid anything going smoothly for her, ha! Why would it? She was just a worth- Stop it. remember you don't give a fuck, fuck it, the teacher hardly even recognises your existence in class, not worth getting mad at, she scolded herself then automatically put a straight face on, she has been faking everything perfectly this year she was not going to let some stupid essay paper ruin it for her.

That's when her friend, Britney, decided to sit next to her, Britney had a soft circle like face structure, that brought out her small, yet beautiful blue-grey eyes, her ginger dyed hair fell to her shoulder, her appearance gave her an innocent over all look which was ironic because she was anything but innocent, with a very aggressive character yet a kind heart Britney caugh Ruth's attention the moment she entered the school.

"Did you do the history essay paper?" Britney asked Ruth, while throwing her bag down on the floor.

"I honestly did," she answered back and then switched ng to a defensive voice tone "but I sorta kinda forgot it at home so I will give it to her tomorrow." And that was the first lie of the day; Ruth mentally rolled her eyes at her own cowardness, she doesn't understand why she lied... It Wasn't something so special to even lie about, she wasn't planning on giving the teacher her essay because she feels that the teacher would look down on her for handing it late and not being as good as the others, she lied to avoid admitting her stupid feelings which were so stupid they were not worth lying about.

"So that's the excuse you are using? I expected you to come up with a better one." Britney said back with a smirk playing on her lips, britney honestly didn't think Ruth even remembered that she had an essay to hand in until she walked into class.

"Noooooo I did itttttt I swearrrr I genuinely forgot at home." Ruth started whining, hiding that fact that the remark her friend made actually stung... Stop it, it doesn't matter she has a point In anyway you normally don't do shit it's your fault for building such a reputation about yourself, but she is my friend ... She shouldn't think so lowly of me, Ruth started mentally arguing back and forth with herself, losing track of everything around her.

Britney studied her friend in silence, she felt bad for being rude, although Ruth should be used to all these rude jokes by now but yet it wasn't a joke, a part of her mean it and also Ruth is being stupid right now, "pfft you actually got mad? Ha hahah you are being such a sensitive bitch today, honestly fucking grow up already." Britney announced bringing Ruth back into reality.

"Oh shut up, I didn't take it seriously, I was just thinking about whether I should go apologize to Lilly or not." Ruth lied, well it wasn't a complete lie as she was thinking about apologizing to Lilly, last night before going to sleep.

"The fuck you apologizing for?" Britney asked, making it clear that she didn't aprove of that plan in any way possible.

"I don't know... I just really think that I have been such a bad friend lately, I haven't spoken to her in weeks, and I feel horrible about it." In reality Ruth felt confused about it.... She honestly didn't give a rats ass if she haven't talked to lily for the last month or year, she just wanted to feel like as if she had friends, she wanted to feel good about herself, she wanted to feel reassured but reassured about what? She still didn't know.

Britney studied Ruth's face, Ruth had an oval shaped face with scars that looked like stick men on both of her cheeks, small and brown eyes which had dark circles underneath came with a small nose and a mouth that a had beauty spot on the top left side of it her hair was short and was a dark shade of gold it sometimes looked brown. After looking at her long and hard Britney came to a conclusion that Ruth's face had a look of wanting on it... As if she wanted something but she wasn't sure what it was.

"Well whatever do what you want but I bet Ravyn didn't agree to this," Britney said but deep down she knew hit home by mention Ruth's best friend, Ravyn, "doe she even know? did you even talk to her about this?" But before Ruth can answer their history teacher walks in, Ruth was spared, she honestly didn't want to talk about Ravyn right now with anyone especially some one as good with emotions and feelings like Britney due to the fact she knew she was going to break if they talked about Ravyn ... Her and Ravyn have been having some trouble communicating lately and she didn't like it... Not one bit.

"Veleny, collect the essay papers and who ever doesn't have it will get zero, no late submissions I gave you one entire week to finish it." Miss Elanor ,our history teacher, said looking everyone dead in the eye daring one of us to argue back, which of course didn't happen. By the time Veleny collected the papers Miss Eleanor has already started talking about how the Cold War started and Ruth has already started shoving all of her thoughts into the back of her head.

Authors note; sorry the conversation between Britney and Ruth was a bit long but at times when you have a conversation that has so many hidden emotions and thoughts behind what's being said it actually feels really long, I introduced only five characters in this Part of chapter one, two of them I described and some what explained their personality (Ruth and Britney), Ruth's personality is a bit vague but I need some time on her. the other three that I have only mentioned but are actually important (one more than the other two) are Ravyn, veleny and Lilly. Thank you so muchhhh.