“ You can’t catch me” i said laughing while my boyfriend was chasing me….
That's how it all started, me and my boyfriend running like two children without worries and without problems. A life that we all want to have, a life in which we can overcome our limits and let ourselves be carried by destiny.
I never thought that in this life I would meet a man who would complete me, be my half, but look how fate smiled and gave me him, my chosen one, or so I thought at that time.
You know, when you're 18, you don't have any worries, and you don't know what love really means or how hard it can be. There will be good days, some even better, but there may be days when you want to take your life. Love is very beautiful, but if you don't know how to control it and keep it, it can become the darkness that will take over your soul.
When I met him, I didn't know what love was, or what kind of feelings you can experience. Everything happened quickly, I didn't realize when I fell in love, when he stole my heart being willing to do anything for him, anything to have his love. But I believed in destiny, and he believed in us and brought us together. Days passed and we were more and more in love. Everything was so beautiful, as if everything I saw sad and colorless around me came to life. Then I realized that love can change a person, it can make him see and love with different eyes.
And now I remember the first time he told me "I love you". I had never heard these words before, I didn't know if I should answer him, but I did. You may wonder why, but I did it because I felt it, and I knew there would never be another boy who would love me the way he did. Sometimes I think that everything was planned, and that destiny wanted the two of us to be together and love each other, and that no one else would ruin the dream in which we live.
Sometimes there were arguments, it hurt, but he never gave up on me, and neither did I. In a short time, I came to love him so much that I forgave him for every mistake. I'm not saying that I didn't make mistakes, but we have to forgive each other, that's what a relationship means, or so I thought. Time has passed and we have been together for 3 years. During this time, we moved together, loved like no one else ever did, traveled, even got a pet, a kitty, her name is Mini.
Everything was beautiful, as if I was living in a dream from which I never wanted to wake up. But I had to...
I found out that we will be parents, a miracle from God, that a little soul will be born from our love, which will resemble us. I was so excited and happy that I left home and followed him to work to give him the big news, that he was going to be a father, I couldn't wait any longer. But as I said, I had to wake up from this beautiful dream.
When I got there, I heard everything, I heard what I was afraid of and I didn't want to believe what my friends told me. But you know love is blind, when you fall in love you think that everyone is against you and that they don't want your good. That was also the case with me.
I was running, and I was running crying, I didn't want to make eye contact with him, only hearing in my head the words he was saying to his friend "I will break up with her, I took the bet to the end. I made her fall in love with me and I stayed with her for 3 years, now I want my reward".
Then I realized that for him I was just a bet, for him it didn't mean anything from everything we lived. He can forget if he wants to but I won't be able to. These years have been a gift to me, and I will never regret it. I loved sincerely, and I am proud of myself that I managed to love and understand this unique feeling, although it wasn't with the right person.
Now I sit and look at the person I loved the most, the one who betrayed me and used me. I don't regret this, in life I will regret only one thing, that I will take the life of an innocent soul who will not see the world and will not have the opportunity to know the feeling of love. With tears in my eyes and my hand on my belly, looking at him begging me not to do this, then I say "I love you"
"Don't do that, please"
Everything started beautifully but not every ending has to be happy, there has to be someone's story that has a tragic ending, and that will be mine. Love made me do this, the pain that took over me, I couldn't resist and face it anymore, so this is the only way to get rid of the pain.... but I know that we will meet again someday my love, I won't forget you. I see him running towards me but all is in vain
"You can't catch me" I said as I fell from a building with tears running down my face as my boyfriend ran after me screaming and crying... and hearing him say "I love you"
