I dont like it when he calls me stupid or when my mom calls me useless or worthless they keep repeating it and i hate it its like a little nickname for i me i hate how they compare me to all my friends and then tell me not to do so i hate when they dont respect my privacy and go through my stuff i hate when my mom touches me weirdly and says that shes my mother i dont care i fucking hate it when people touch me or look at me like that way i hate it i hate it i fucking hate it and literally everyone in my new school wont stop bothering me about my race and theyre not even black and it pisses me off so much when someone calls me a cotton picker or pretends to whip me or says "nigger" 10x in a row because they have the "n word pass" its so fucking childish and i hate it i cant go one day in that literal hell without getting racism and whenever my mom finds my suicide notes she doesnt even care shes more mad at me than worried for me cus its a fucking "sin" bitch idgaf can you atleast pretend to be worried that your daughter is in mental pain instead of some god and i cant even pay attention in class i mentally and physically cannot pay attention and it puts me so behind and im so behind in school right now and i hate it i cant get off this stupid phone im so useless and lazy i think my mom is right i dont want her to be right but she is and i fucking hate it i hate it all i just want to end it and be free from this torture
