A sad beginning and end...

Woe

I already want too grow old and live on my own... I want too so bad, for the reason I don't like being told what too do and would like too be alone... But I want someone too be with me who loves me truly and intensions are pure... I, a woe is asking for a joy in my life... As would anyone else would want in there's... My point? I simply want peace in my life but as hard as I try... It's never enough too anyone... I am pitied for my sorrows... Is it so much too ask that I want someone in my life too give me advice... Love me... Care for me... Comfort me... Hold me... Is it? I want too tell you that I am living a life where the birds chirp too the sunrise and everyone is happy.... but no that's not real....my life is full of hate, loneliness, demise, hurt, and depressed.... But why? I was betrayed by the one person I have my trust too... My heart.... My love... My care... My.... Everything as I truly believed she was the one but no... She left and took part of my spiritual essence along with her.... Don't tell me "grow up it's just a girl" the girl is someone I gave my everything too and it wasn't enough simply.... Apparently my everything isn't enough.... My life is late nights thinking about suicide... Popping pills... Sad quotes... Anger... And much more... One day it'll end and all I will see.... Is a dark void of darkness which I will stand at the top... And with out a thought... I would have jumped....