"Akari, you better be home by 6" I heard my moms booming voice through the phone. She's always yelling. My mom has never been the type to wait. It was either you moved on her time or got left behind. Usually, I would be home already, but today, I wouldn't need to get back early. The cold, lonesome forest welcomed me like a friend. The cold air from winter that stung my cheeks felt like a hug, a much needed hug. Today, I would never return home. Today was the day I would kill myself and take my last breath.
I walked for hours to get to the lake in the forest, a secluded area away from anything and anyone that may be a disturbance. My dad used to take me here on our walks. I am so young at the time. Tying the heavy rock to feet felt gratifying but terrifying at the same time. I've been planning this for a long time now, but there was nothing that could change my mind, I wanted to die.
As I stared into the deep lake, I couldn't help but let my thoughts wander. Would my mom even care? Would my dad? I want to believe that my mom cares for me and loves me, but every time she sees me, all I see behind her eyes is hate. When she looks at me, all she sees is the number one hero, All Might. When my mom looks at me, all she can see is my dad. My mom could never look me straight in the eyes and say that I was her baby girl. Would she miss me? I want her to cry like she's never cried before when she realizes that I won't return home, I won't even give her the closure of reading a note.
I don't think my dad loves me or even likes me. He hasn't taken time out of his day to see me since the divorce, I remember waiting every day for his calls and texts. He used to come up with excuses for why he couldn't come see me. It was always the wildest of lies. Eventually, the lies stopped, but so did the calls and the texts. Strangers across the world get to see him everyday, why wasn't I fortunate enough to be important to him like others where? I just wanted his love and attention, I just wanted to be seen, to be heard, and to have the love of a father. I see his face everywhere. His stupid smile felt like a constant reminder that he would never value me in the way a father values his daughter. I want him to be stuck in grief and regret when he gets the news of my passing, I went him to know what it feels like to know that somebody you once loved will never come back. I want him to experience what I felt for 9 long years, I want him to suffer.
Haah,"I'm really going to do this." There was no one around me, but for some reason, I felt the need to talk like I was talking to another person. Maybe I did want somebody to hear me, to see me, but it was too late for that now. As I threw the rock into the lake and jumped in, the world seemed to have slowed down. I could feel the gravity pulling me down into the water, the cold, cold water. As I submerged into the water, I could feel my eyes begin to sting. The water was cold, but the deeper I got, the more comforting it felt. This was it. This was the end.
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The last thing Akari expected to see when she opened her eyes was a white hospital ceiling. At first, she thought God had taken pity on her and sent her to heaven, but the beeping hospital machines said otherwise. This was incredibly embarrassing for her, I mean, who really expects to survive a suicide attempt. Now she'd have to look her mom in the eyes even though she planned on never seeing her again. Akari wanted to dissappear, it seemed like things just never went her way.
She sat there in silence while the nurses notified her that her mom would be on the way, how great. She knew that her mom would be done with her this time, it isn't the first time she had tried to harm herself.
Outside her door, she could little children playing pretend. They were pretending to be heroes.
"I want to be All Might this time, you always get to be All Might." It seemed like even after trying to kill herself, her father still haunted her. He was everywhere like a parasite, she hated it. She tried to tune the kids out and focus on the other sounds in the hospital, but it was futile because the kids were right outside her door, and they were loud. She zoned out for a while until she heard the sound of the door click open. Her mom stood right by the doorway.
She looked directly at Akari, but no hate was in her eyes, just sadness. The dry tears on her cheek were evidence that she had been crying. She didn't say anything, and Akari didn't either. She didn't know what to say to her mom, "Sorry, I tried to kill myself again lol," wasn't going to cut it. She knew she was in big trouble, but nothing could prepare her for the words her mom had just utterly to her. She could understand sending her to a therapist or a place that allowed her to get real help, but this was crazy talk.
Her mom gulped and let put a big sigh. She looked like she was preparing to tell her the worst news of her life. "Akari, me and your dad have," she paused, taking in another deep breath, she trying to prepare herself for the long "conversation" they would have after she said this. "Akari, me and your dad have decided that it's best that you start living with him, permanently."
What did she just say?
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Lainy here, any I just want to say that that's a LOT of narration, but I tried my best to write an angst chapter that made sense, yk? Constructive criticism is needed and appreciated, I hope you enjoyed this chapter.
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FanfictionDisconnect is a story inspired by Tyler The Creators song, "Like Him." Akari Yagi was a good child. She had an amazing quirk, made good grades, and was disciplined. The ideal child, right? That's what she thought, too, but her dad clearly didn't s...
