Painful Nights - A real life experience

7: Don't kill me.. I love you

Mikah, for months on end had avoided sleeping, finding that getting drunk helped. For about 1 year and 5 months she had been going out and getting drunk or at least getting tipsy. In this state, slumber was bliss. No nightmares, no haunting, no drama. Just peaceful slumber. On the 22nd of September 2022 she met someone. Black mullet, piercing blue eyes, dressed in 2000's emo fashion. Stood 6 foot tall. Mikah fell hard for this boy. His name being Dionysus, Dio for short. The more they got to know each other, the less she drank, it was scary but she would do anything to be sober for him.

A month before they both started dating Mikah would stay at his house, where his room mates lived as well. One night, when they were spending the night together, Mikah felt slightly nervous to fall asleep due to not being drunk or tipsy, being in Dio's warm embrace made it easier. Made her feel at ease and not terrified. 

While in the warm gentle embrace of her loved one, Mikah fell into a deep slumber.

Her eyes snapped opened to see her partners room. A sigh of relief slipped through her lips as panic within her began to settle. As Mikah turned her head to look at Dio, who was no longer lying next to her, the realisation settled in quickly...

Slowly her eyes traced from the space beside her to the end of the bed and there stood her loving partner. Body becoming paralysed, as if her body was part of the bed. All Mikah could do was move her eyes, nothing else in her body worked. There was another presence stood next to Dio, both staring down at her as they both held large kitchen knives in their hands.

Pounding began in her chest and sweat forming from Mikah's head.

'D...Dio? What's wrong?'

Mikah's asked Dio in a shakey terrified tone. There was no response. Just silence. Their eyes staring at Mikah's soul. Fear consumed her body and now she was trapped. Again. This was her life now. There was no cure. No escape. Only the 2 realities that Mikah lived in. Real life with loved ones and an exciting life. The other life was being stuck with fear. Nothing but fear.

Mikah stared at them as Dio and the other presence next to him began crawling forward towards Mikah, looking like supernatural beings...

Trauma began settling in, making itself at home as if it never left. Mikah starting thinking that her loving partner was actually trying to kill her. In her mind the begging words that many women spoke before her swarmed around her mind, consuming all trust she began to gain back.

Not one word could have saved her. Not one. She believed that the one she thought to have been nice and trustworthy, was actually evil. Thats when the knives them evil beings were holding began to rise up in the air. Higher and higher. This was it. This was the end. Any final thought's Mikah had were fear and hatred. Not hatred for her lover but for herself. The life she had to live filled with fear, hatred and depression.

The strange thing was... in her final moments as she knew how depressing the last few years of her life was, she didn't want to die. She loved this person.

'Please... Don't kill me. I love you...'

Mikah shot awake panting and coated in a cold sweat. Her loving partner, Dio, was staring at her rather confused yet scared and worried.

'Are you okay love?'

Dio asked to Mikah, Seeing her so panicked and scared worried him. This was the first time Dio had ever experienced something like this before. Mikah took a while to process what had just been said to her as she slowly looked at him and felt comfort looking into his eyes. She gained the strength to tell him what she had experienced.

'In my dream... you tried to kill me.'

She spoke slowly to him, terrified of what he would say or do, body shaking like a leaf. Forcing her eyes to stay awake as she stared at him waiting for him to reply. In her mind, his reaction would be bad, thinking that he was just going to yell at her or call her stupid. Her thoughts were far from the truth. Dio in fact just wrapped his arms around her and had an expression filled with sympathy. As he pulled away and looked in her eyes, speaking in a soft soothing tone.

'its okay honey, don't worry. I would never do such a thing. I love you too much. Do you want to talk about it more or do you just want to cuddle?'

This response was new to her. Tears formed in her eyes and a smile was slowly forming on her face, feeling comfort in his words. Mikah melted into his touch and just laid with him, finally feeling safe in the arms of a lover. Finally feeling peace knowing she was safe.