Star And Mr. Moon - [When Silence Speaks Louder]

CHAPTER 50 - Our Destiny (Ending)

Silent.

Just after I said those sentences,

"I can't hear your heartbeat"

Me and him both just got silent. As if the cat got his tongue. But instead of pushing him away, I hold him even tighter.

Everything is just too perfect. Right now I feel the happiest to the point where I feel like this can't be real... Every time I felt like everything just got better, I know it will end soon and might not stay forever.

And now it's not too far from what I've been thinking.

"Say something... Why didn't you say anything? I want to hear your voice"

I've voiced out to Chawarin that I know was not really there.

"What do you want me to say, Dear? There's nothing to explain"

Then he continued to stroke my head. And for the umpteenth time, I feel like crying again. I bit my bottom lips as I felt this bitterness in the back of my throat.

"Dear... You know all along that I'm not really here, right? You know that I'm not real... You know that I'm not here"

Exactly that time, my sobs escaped my mouth when he said that. It felt so heavy in my chest. I clenched my teeth as the warm tears were in the corner of my eyes. I put my forehead against his chest as the water in my eyes slowly fell to his skin.

Ah. It's painful. So painful...

"Then why don't you say something about it? If you're not really here, then why did you appear here in the first place? Why must you lie to me like this?"

I said to him with my voice that started to crack as I tried to hold my cry.

Then I felt a sniff kiss on the top of my head. It felt so real. He brings his slender hands to my face and gives me a soft caress.

"Aowh my Love... How am I supposed to answer that? Hum?"

Then he kissed me on the forehead.

"I am here, because you want me to be here... You are the one who created me in your head. You long for me so much that you started imagining me here, right by your side, love"

No. No. That's not true.

"My love... You're in denial. I was here as your safety measures so you won't go insane. I know my loss might be too much for you... That's why I'm here"

Oh. Oh well. If it's true that this Chawarin is not my Chawarin... Then that can't be helped. I will stay here forever if it means that I can see him till the day I die.

"Okay... Then I stay here FOREVER"

I said that to him as I tightened my arm on his body. Then I looked up to him.

"You're real or not... You're just my imagination or not, at least I gotta see you right now... I could hold you, I could feel you. So why don't I just stay here with you forever?"

Then a slight smile appeared on his ethereal face. A small chuckle escaped his lips before he looked at me lovingly.

"Baby... You can't stay here forever"

"Why can't I?"

"Because..."

Then he pointed at me using his index finger, exactly at my chest, precisely where my heart is placed.

"...Zee is alive. While me..."

Then he retreated his fingers from me and pointed at himself,

"... Is just your imagination"