3 years before, 2021
A day before,
(IT'S A STORY OF MINE)
Girl: Yaar dekh, ek hi life hai isko khulke nhi jiyegi to kaise chalegaa btaaaa
Girl 2: Hmm..u r right, just I don't have any idea bohot negative ho gya hai life, pta nhi kya hi chal raha life mai..
Girl: Dekho zindagi bohot choti hai, itna mt socho..har din acche se raho kya pta kal ho na ho...
Like this, I finally consoled my friend and played the song... Apna har din aise jiyo jaise ki aakhri ho..
Next day
It was my school, I enjoyed a lot that day but the weather, it was speaking something else...black clouds were roaming everywhere and the vibe was sad....
My friend called me to washroom and she gave me a tight hug there for consoling her...and genuinely I was so happy...by that...bcoz she never hgged me before...I felt peace...when I came back due to weather our buses were delayed...and it was like our buses had number S1, S2...so they were calling us and one by one we were going...
I was sitting in my bench and was talking to my other friend when suddenly, a sir my social science teacher said, "Sidarth ka death ho gya hai"
Me being me....I never in my worst dream could have thought, it is our sidarth...wo to ja hi nhi sakta na? wo kaise ja sakta hai?
To I didn't paid heed to it, my friend knew how much of a big fan I am of sidarth, so she asked"Ye tera wala to nhi hai na?"
A wave of anger rushed through me, "Pagal ho kya, apne shukla ji ki umar lambi hai, abhi to bohot kch krna hai unhe....kch bhi mtlb"
After that also, not for a single second I thought...ki aisa ho sakta hai....
But then sir told, it was sidarth shukla...and I can't describe what I was feeling at that moment...it was like I started shivering and just hoping that it's not real...
When I reached home...and came to know, I cried for 2 hrs atleast....bcoz maybe I never loved a celebrity like a family, uske liye apne saare doston se ladna, crying after seeing him win...shipping him with shehnaaz, and what not...he was more like a family to me...I remember he always used to post something with shehnaaz before my bday...and I used to consider it as a bday gift...and like that...I loved him with my all heart...but that day...it felt like...I lost someone very close to me...as if a void got created in my heart...which never filled.
BUT, AS SHEHNAAZ SAID....
Mere dil ko pata hai tu yhi hai yahan hai....
Wo dur hoke bhi dur nhi hua, shehnaaz mai wo hai...hm sab mai wo hai....bhale hi 3 saal bit gye ho..but wo void kbhi nhi bhar sakta...seeing him through videos....on exam, praying to god when suuddely his face comes in mind...inhi sb moments pe..wo shamil ho gaya, dur hoke bhi kbhi dur nhi ho paya....
With time dard zarur kam hua, but wo dard kbhi gya nhi....
Suddelny crying after random flashbacks and what not...
Just wanna say, sidarth wherever u are..may you always be in peace...we all love you so much
3 years later:
Shehnaaz : 3 saal ho gye sidarth, yaaad krta hai tu mujhe?
Sidarth: Jaan, yaad kyu karu..mai kb tujhse dur chala gya ye to bta...mai to tujhme hi hu....yhi deal huyi thi na humari...
Shehnaaz: Hmmm, but tu ase nhi hai na merepaaas...hug krne ko...sone ko mere saath, samaj rha tu
Sidarth: Kisne bola mai to har raat tujhe hug krta hu, tere sbse paas rehta hu....
