LISA : THE ALPHA FEMALE

Chapter 10

Camilla

Fucking Liar, fucking cheater, fucking asshole, stupid son of a bitch , how could he do this to me. I fucking trusted him , I fucking loved him but what does he do , he cheats on me with that fucking bitch, a bitch that I trusted and considered as a friend, why huh?.

Why?

Cause you a worthless hoe...

SHUT THE FUCK UP,AM NOT

Oh darling but you are, that why
your parents left you.

That why your fucking uncle raped you for years.

SHUT UP, PLEASE STOP

Did you really think anyone will
love you.

Did you really think Xavier will
want someone who was sleeping
with her uncle.

I WASN'T SLEEPING WITH HIM , HE RAPED ME

Whatever bitch, hoe, useless thing
with a disgusting body.

Xavier went for someone on his league.

Did you actually think he would like someone like you when he is surrounded by girls like Lisa.

Look at Lisa she's walking temptation then look at
yourself.

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP, SHUT UUUUUUUP.

The voice is getting worse each day, I have been trying to avoid it everyday but today I can't, today it louder. I started hearing it a few weeks after my uncle started sexually abusing me, whispering to me I deserved it , whispering that it all my fault, today it not whispering it loud and no matter how much I shout at it to shut up or how much I hit my head to stop it, it doesn't stop, it only keeps going.

I have been pretending like am okay , like am over what my uncle did to me but this stupid voice in my head keeps reminding me how broken I am , how ruined I am, I have been pretending in front of Xavier and everyone like am okay, like am over everything, even when me and Xavier are alone I still pretend, but everytime Xavier goes out I break down and when he is back I act like everything is fine, I act like am not slowly losing my mind.

I knew that there was no way a guy like Xavier would love someone like me , there was no way a guy like him could like a girl who's body has been ruined by her uncle , when he is surrounded by girls who look like Sabrina and Lisa , he is just passing time while thinking of ways to hide his relationship with Lisa , I hate Lisa for being so perfect , I hate her for getting the man I love. Y ODIO ESTA VOZ EN MI CABEZA.

It now quite, so I get up from the floor of our room and take Xavier's clothes I was tearing apart
and put them in a trashcan, pour gasoline over them , I take the trashcan and go to the backyard and I start burning them, after am done I go back inside and start with my hygiene process, after am done I change and get ready for my meeting with Hernandez.