𝐒𝐰𝐢𝐦 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 |KinLani|

𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐬

All my life, i've always been at the ocean. It's where i belonged and grew up. The evening sunset, the massive waves, and the glittering sand is what grew my love for summer even more.

When i was 4, i started surfing with my father. We went out every evening while my mother was cooking dinner to ride the waves.

My Father and i were closer than anyone else. We would do everything together and he was my biggest supporter. He taught me how to surf.

One day when i was 9, we were surfing as usual and the waves were massive. Before getting in, i mentioned it and he said not to worry. He got in before me and was in for a few minutes before the waves became worse.

Soon my father got swallowed by the waves and i wasn't able to see him. I screamed for him but heard nothing besides the swishing waves.

I ran back home to my mother and told her what happened. She instantly came running to the beach while calling the police. When we got there, he was nowhere to be seen. After a few hours they found my father's lifeless body, and declared him dead.

Ever since that day, i've blamed myself. No matter how much the adults told me it wasn't my fault, i knew deep down it was. I should've warned him more, or held onto him and forced him not to go in. Maybe he would be alive if i tried.

I've never went to the beach since. It once was my happy place but now all i see it as is the place i killed my father.

-

Tears began to fall from my eyes as i bolted awake. My eyes glance at the window and i can tell it's morning already.

Every so often i have dreams of my father. Sometimes awful but rarely ones where he's alive with all of us. Maybe it's a sign that he hates what i did.

As i'm about to stand up and set dressed, my little sister bolts into my room.

"Mualani! Are you awake? Mom sent me to make sure your awake for school." Kachina yells covering her eyes with one hand.

"yeah i'm awake, why are you covering your eyes?"

"sorry, i didn't want to accidentally walk in on you changing and make you upset" she said removing her hand.

"Thanks for thinking about that but you don't have anything to be sorry for" i say walking over to my closet, grabbing out my outfit.

"Thank you Mualani, mom says breakfast will be ready soon" she says screaming while leaving my room.

I didn't respond, just laughed.

-

Every morning on the way to school, i have to ride by the beach. I always get put into a sad mood everytime i see it. I really wish i had a car so i could avoid it.

"Mualani!!" Nilou yells as she runs up to me

"Nilou!!" i say reciprocating her enegery as she hugs me.

Nilou and I are childhood best friends. We grew up together and our parents were friends. We use to go everywhere together until she moved so another part of the island.

"i haven't seen you in ages" She says letting go of me

"i've missed you Nilou"

We started walking towards the inside of the school and catching eachother up on our lives after we parted ways.

"we should hang out after school today" i say as i glance at her

within that glance i accidentally bump into somebody.

"watch where your going" the stranger exclaims, slamming his locker.

"oh.. sorry"

he started walking away from me to go talk to his friends.

"how rude.." i say under my breathe, loud enough for Nilou to hear

"i know right.." she whispers back

we soon made it to our lockers and put our gym clothes and extras in them. Before we knew it, the bell rings to go to first block.

"byeee, meet me at lunch" the red head says as she walks to her class

"will do" i respond

I enter the classroom and take a glance at everybody before i go to sit down. Great, i'm seated next to the jerk from earlier.

Before he comes into class, i calm myself down.

'think positive Mualani, maybe he's having a bad day' i say mentally, hoping to have a fresh opinion on him

As i'm in deep thought, i hear the chair next to me scrape against the floor.

"oh, it's you" he says in a rude tone

I was about to say a witty comeback but the teacher comes in and talks just as i was about to speak. Maybe it's for the best.

"hello class, since it's the first day of school, why not get to know your desk mate better with a project!" The AP culture teaches announces with a malicious tone.

She explains the assignment, with our first unit being on Hawaiian culture.

"well, let's get started then!" she said

I started reading the handout she passed out, it contains all of the requirements.

"i guess we are partners!" i exclaimed

"no shit, we are desk partners" he said in a confronting tone

That's it, i'm done with his behavior. I tried being nice but i'm absolutely freaking done.

"listen, i don't know why you are so upset with me or what i did to upset you but you need to calm the fuck down" i yell

After i said that, the whole class went silent. For a second i was confused until i remembered that i let my anger get the best of me.

"wow, what strong opinions you have today Miss. Kalawaia, maybe you should share them in detention after school today" the teacher says

The male next to me starts laughing before she continues.

"Oh don't think i forgot about you Mr. Kinich, you also have detention after school"

After the teacher said that, he stopped laughing which made me start laughing. Soon enough everybody started talking again.

a few minutes went by and then i just ask him something without thinking.

"why are you so annoyed with me?"

I glance at him, with my head resting on my arms.

"it's to embarrassing to admit, i rather not" he started blushing

"ohh cmon, can't be that bad"

he sighed before saying..

"you left and never told me, i was all alone.."