Big Deal? (Kiribaku)

Call Me Katsuki

I lie awake, even when Bakugo was fast asleep beside me.
"Call me Katsuki," he'd chided again this morning.
Right. Katsuki.
We tried to not make a big deal of our relationship, to the point where not even nosy Monoma of Class 1B knew any better. Katsuki only suspected that Midoriya knew. I mean, how could he have not have known? Midoriya hyper-analyzes every single classmate, but he hadn't commented on us yet.

Katsuki rolled over on his side to face me. "You're still up, idiot." He palmed my face with his hand. "Sleep. We're waking at 5 tomorrow." I had fallen asleep in Ba- Katsuki's dorm again after a long study session that left me feeling like maybe sleeping was the solution to all my problems.
Waking at 5? Oh right. Bakugo's morning runs. He'd dragged me along to almost every single one of them, though I happily woke ready to tag along regardless.

"Hey, d'ya think it's gonna rain tomorrow?" I chatted, not wanting sleep.
Katsuki huffed out a sigh, of what I'm assuming is exhaustion. "What the hell's on your mind? Spit it out and stop stalling with small talk."
"It's nothing!" I defended, not wanting to tell him the reason of my selective insomnia.
"I know it's something and if you don't tell me I'm sending you back to your room."
Jeez. When did Ba- I mean, Katsuki become such a mom? My mom would love him.
Which brought up the point that lingered on my mind. Heck, I'll tell him.
"Well, it uh, it feels weird not telling our friends. And family. About us. Like, they all tell us about what's going on with them, and..." I felt my confidence slipping away as I ended that sentence with "I dunno." That earned me a death glare from Katsuki, but I didn't want to break it to him that his signature stare didn't have the same weight to it when his head was crushed onto a pillow.

"No, you do know. Just say it." He said it sternly; a command. Leave it to my boyfriend to not beat around the bush.
"I want to tell them. Our friends keep wondering where I am and there's only so many times I can say you're tutoring me before it seems like I'm just blowing them off. Like, Sero was pissed when I canceled on him today, because I was spending time with you. He's gonna start thinking that I only wanna be your friend," I hesitated before saying the next line, but I was on a roll now, and he obviously wanted me to speak my mind, "and everyone outside 3-A already thinks that our friendship is one-sided."
His eyes narrowed. "Shut up, they don't think that." Katsuki sounded... concerned? Nah, he just sounded tired.
"They kinda do," I pressed, "They know you like spending time with me, but they think that I've got some crush on you, whereas you're completely oblivious."
"That's crap, I asked you out!"
"Well, you're not so emotionally aware when we're in a group. All our moments have been in private." I muttered out that part. So unmanly of me.
"And that's exactly what I wanted."
"But that's not what I wanted, Katsuki." I huffed into my pillow and turned around, no longer facing Bakugo's piercing crimson eyes. My favourite colour. Of course.

His hands crept to wrap around my waist, pulling me closer to him. "So what can I do?" His voice was trying, at least, to sound like he cared.
"I'm not asking for full on PDA or anything, but at least you could rest your hand on mine or something?" I paused, realizing that I sounded pleading. Unmanly! "I dunno. It's stupid, forget I said anything, bro."
At this I could feel Katsuki tense up. He grabbed my shoulders and hauled me over to face him.
"Bastard! Three months of dating and kissing and all that crap and you bro-zoned me! Shit, Eijirou, I didn't know those extras were your freaking life line. I don't care what our damned classmates think! I'll do whatever the hell I want in front of them! I only kept it a secret because it didn't matter any damn way to me."
"But it mattered to me." I whispered out.
"But it mattered to you," Katsuki repeated softly, and then the fire returned into his voice, "and you didn't frickin' speak up! Damn you!"
I laughed at this. How Katsuki could be so soft and so sharp all at the same time, that I would never really fully understand.
He traced my face with his fingers before leaning in and planting a few kisses on my cheeks. "G'night."

- Starharbor <3