Your destiny

────What friends?────

"Don't leave me !" A girl cries out.


I was leaning onto the railings of my balcony, the soft and gentle wind brushing through my skin, as my hair danced with it. The memories of my past keep haunting me in an endless loop. It was tiring honestly, being chased by your trauma and all. I haven't gotten a good sleep in days.

I miss them..

The silence was then later interrupted by the creaking noise of my bedroom door being opened, a person peers in. Leani.

"Hey!" She says, her voice soft and even.

"What?" I say over my shoulders, my gaze shifting to look at her as I did so. Her expression was the same as always, still so concerned and worried about me. Though, I can't blame her, not at all.

Leani was my mothers best friend. Ever since my parents died, she took me into her care; she treated me like her own child.
She lost one of her own aswell in a miscarriage, her baby died while she was giving birth, and ever since then we've been living together like family, but not by blood.

She silently stood there for a while, taking notice of my character before speaking up,

"You haven't changed into your school uniform.." She breathed out, seemingly disappointed but expected of it.

"You're gonna be late."

Right.. School. I almost forgot it was monday.. And honestly, I don't feel like going to school, it's tiring, draining, and stressful. My grades are average anyways so why bother?

"Your friends are waiting for you downstairs,"

I didn't give an answer. My friends? Waiting for me? What a joke. They'll leave eventually if they find out I won't be going to school. Plus, what friends? I already cutted them all off from social media, I don't have friends anymore.

Leoni then sighed softly, turning around to close the door, but said something quietly before she goes,

"I'll tell them you won't be going."

And just like that, Leoni turned and closed the door behind her, leaving me alone again with my thoughts.

I sighed and looked down from the railings of my balcony, the sound of the busy streets filled my ears. Their honking, their engine noises, the sound of them yelling at eachother —

"Move it!"

"Don't you know how to drive?!"

"Stop blocking my car!"

I hate it. They're so damn noisy.. They're like NPCs, all doing the same work for minimum wage, working day and night for what? A paycheck that doesn't give them the right amount of money they worked hard for, and yet they're still grateful for it.

I don't wanna be like them.

I don't wanna turn out like them.

I just wanna fade away like a dead corpse after it was buried.

It was all so infuriating, but I don't know why. My grip on the rails tightened as I listened to all the noises of the streets that surrounded my mind, it was all I could hear from this moment on. I want it to vanish. I gritted my teeth, placing my hand on my forehead as I brushed my bangs back.

My head hurts and I'm sweating like crazy even if the wind was cold. I sometimes think I have this weird condition or something (Hyperhidrosis) — Whatever the case is, I just wanna lay down, shut my eyes and forget about this craziness for a while..

I pushed myself away from the railing and turned around, only to see my "friends"standing infront of my door. Jay, Heiley, Eli, Mark.

My eyes widened. "What..-" I say breathily. Why are they here?

I didn't even notice them coming in. "Nicole.. are you alright?" Jay says. They all had a worried expression on their faces, much like Leanis. I bet they all pity me too.

"Why are you here.. We're not friends anymore are we?" I say, my hands curling up into a fist.

Heiley spoke up after I finished my sentence — "How can you say that?! We've been bestfriends for-" but before she could finish hers, Jay stopped her; she looked at me, her gaze to me was unclear, it looked like she was glaring but also worried, perhaps a soft gaze?..

"Stop it.. Don't say that, we're worried about you Nicole.." Eli steps in "We're still friends you know?" Mark nodded in agreement.

Friends? Hah, they think we're still friends? How stupid..
Before I could say anything to try and push them away. Heiley and Jay came up to me and pulled me in a tight embrace. I could hear Heiley quietly sob while leaning in to my shoulders, her tears staining my shirt, this was the first I ever saw her cry infront of me, over me — "Idiot.. I thought we were bestfriends, you haven't talked to me in months, I thought you were gonna kill yourself for real.." She says as she tries to catch her breath in between the sobs "Don't scare me like that.."

I opened my mouth to say something but Jay spoke up, she was shedding tears aswell — "Tarantado ka talaga.."

My eyebrows furrowed, I was about to speak up again until I felt two presence beside me, I turned to look and it was Mark and Eli, they had this soft gaze and gentle smile while looking down on me — "We won't let you leave us that easily you know?" Eli says.

My lips quiver as my pupils shake, had I not realized that tears were already flowing down my eyelids. I couldn't say anything anymore, the words I wanted to say earlier to turn them away disappeared from my mind.

They're willing to stay, despite how I harshly turned them away without a word?

The words that came out of my mouth were now incoherent as I sob. The tears wouldn't stop flowing. I placed my hand on both Heiley and Jays as I cried.

"I'm sorry..." I say quietly.

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(Authors note: This story will progress slowly, as I am a highschool student with a lot of work to do. Don't rush me<3)