Lonely Queen ( Demon slayers X reader)

Chapter 28: Outburst

Tanjiro watching with pitying in his eyes, 'Usually I can't smell (Y/n)-san emotions because all I smell on her are calm everytime I met with her but this time. I can feel that she is furious, disappointed and broken.' Tanjiro want to go forward to give you a hug but Zenitsu grab his arm to warn him not to go near. Right now, you finally yelled it out loud while you're crying and facing the other, "You were right! I am a monster! A monster that kills all the enemies just to get revenge for her deceased family and save the town! A monster that kill her best friend because she betrayed us! A fucking monster that deserve to be live in hell suffer for 3 million years!"

You're watching their guilty eyes and some of them lower their head, doesn't have the heart to facing you. Senemi mouth agape, right now he is speechless. You continue while gritting your teeth, "I've lost my freedom since the day one when I was in hell, I've been killed over and over again by every creature in there! When the day I officially became a hell demon, I thought my life would be better but no, this was just the appetizer! I've been bullied, I've been betrayed, I've been stalked, I've been rape by the man that I trust the most, I was used as a scapegoat, I've been tortures, I was forced to ripped out my reproductive system and there are no powers can regenerate it and the most importantly they always test my patience until my heart become cold..."

You were mumbling a bit at the last sentence, you crouch down slowly while your black red tears fell on the ground lightly. "You can survive if you were cruel, that's what the former king told me. I kill him to get his throne and prove every demon that I can rule a kingdom without a king, but I'm not happy even if I get the throne my underlings will always try to plan something on my back just to satisfy their desires." Tanjiro asked with his eye shaking, "What desires?" You smirk while raising your head, facing them with your sharp eyes staring at them. They felt a chill when they looking at you, "They desires to control me like a puppets or worse, imprison me forever by their side and there is no chance that I can see the light again if they were succeed."

"Na mo ami batsu, I apologize for my interfere right now, (L/n)-san. I've question to asked you," Gyomei put his palm together while crying, you replied while wiping your tears away, "Ask away, Himejima Gyomei-san." You narrowed your eyes in observation, he speak while standing up facing you although he's blind, "If you say you've suffer in hell for so long, then may I asked you how did you back on the surface if you were the ruler in there, then isn't there must be a lot of responsibility you've left behind?" You hummed lightly, "For answering your question Himejima-san, I was retired from being a queen of hell for three millennia. I passed down my throne to the man that I was trusted the most and there was a new king to rule the hell so I doesn't worried about that."

Gyomei rubbing his palm together, "I understand, I've one more question for you. Did you still killed after you back on the surface?" The others look at you curiously, and Kagaya stare at you blankly, you smirk a bit, "You guys will be shock for this, yes I still killed..." As you expected, you can heard gasping, shocking and the sound of unbelievable. Gyomei replied while crying, "I see, namo ami batsu." You can hear how disappointed he is right now, and Obanai speaks, "If (L/n) has committed murder before, that's mean by the rule of the demon slayer corps we must executed her for her sin." Tengen clenching his fist in force agree with Obanai, "I agree with Iguro, who knows one day what she will do to the corps."

Tanjiro are getting anxious when they said that you need to be executed so he objection, "Wait! Although (Y/n)-san comitted murder before but I'm sure that she must having a good reason to do that, maybe she was being force or something." Shinobu took a sigh, "I'm sorry, Tanjiro-san. I have to agree with Iguro-san, I can say that if (Y/n)-san was do it in intentional, I could tell that her intelligence are higher than everyone else over here and I'm sure there is no way that she was forced to kill." You wore a sly smile on your lips, before you could speak. Tanjiro defending you, "But! She saved Rengoku-san and us by sacrificing herself, by dashing in front of him. She is also risking having her secret exposes just to protect us, therefore if she kill someone before but it doesn't mean that she still kill at the present."