Endless love

--2 ( the flashback )

October 25 , 2010

 
I was in highschool when i met this guy i used to call him josh , but most people call him adrian . i thought that time i was just dreaming when he texted me several messages on my phone . well , i admit that i had a crush on him since were in grade school but this time it's something more passionate . our conversation went well naman kaya after months of waiting we've been into a real relationship where love and affection matters . it was on FEBRUARY 22 , 2011 :) i think i'm one of the happiest girl that time , ikaw ba naman na nagkagusto din pala yung gusto mo sa'yo ? at isa pa yung efforts niya sa'yo at yung pagmamahal niya kaya na-uwi ang lahat sa totoo . hopefully after months of being together our relationship went well but admit it sometimes na meron talagang EPAL  sa relasyon niyo diba ? hindi lahat perfect . even us individuals we have our flaws but it's a part of being who we are . pero those time we're strong enough para e handle parin yung relationship namin . kaya blessed na talaga kami noon dahil sino ba naman sa murang edad e magtatagal kayo ng 1 year and counting pa yan ha . hehe diba ? minsan lang talaga eh . kaya naman todo ingat talaga ako , mahal mo eh , sino ba namang babae ang hindi gusto na mag-work out yung relationship niyo ? siguro tanga siya kung ganun . kasi wala naman talagang ganun eh , kahit na in real-life walang ganun . so anyway , let's go back we're our relationship last just for nothing . 

[  Louise POV ]

  Habang umuupo sa bahay ng kaibigan ko nung mga hapon nayun nang nagmamadaling pumunta yung kaibigan ko na si janine para lang maki- balita , alam mo naman chismis mabilis kumalat eh .

" lou ! lou , alam mo na ba ang balita ?"  i just stare at her. sa hindi ko alam eh . tsk

" ano naman yun ??? "  tanong naman ng besh ko sa kanya , it's kath.

" break na daw kayo ni adrian ???"  huh ? a-at ? san naman nanggaling yung balita ? wow . mabuti pa sila alam nila ha .

" s-sino nagsabi sayo nine ?? "  tanong ko sa kanya . hayst . eto na nga ba ang sinasabi ko eh .

" eto kasi yun , habang pa-uwi ako dito galing sa pinuntahan ko eh nagka-usap kami ng isang kaibigan natin si laiza , tapos ayun sinabi niya sakin na sabi daw ni adrian sa kanila eh wala na daw kayo , as in break ! kaya ayun sinabi niya sakin kasi akala niya alam ko na at alam mo na . kaso hindi pa pala , ikaw pa siguro yung pinaka huling naka-alam eh ."  paliwanag naman ni janine sakin . h-hindi k-ko na alam ang sasabihin ko , i don't know what to react right now . i just can't explain what i am feeling this time of my life . i want to cry out loud kung totoo man iyo pero hindi eh , walang lumabas na luha sa mata ko and worst i just feel numbness and my body was shaking . i want to run until my heartaches will fade away . but how ? i'm so stupid for not knowing that our relationship is at the bottom line , i dont know what to do ? run after him ? or just forget him ????  so i just texted him after that incident nang nangyari samin ni janine , para naman kasi malinawan ako sa mga pangyayari masakit talaga sa part ko na hindi ko lang man malaman yung mga dahilan .

me :

  hi , babe !  kamusta ? ba't di kana nagte-text ? miss na kita .  pero babe , ba't may nalaman akong balita ? wala na daw tayo ?? diba joke yun ?? diba ? hindi ako naniniwala eh alam ko naman na mahal mu'ko kaya sana man lang replayan mo tong text ko . iloveyou :*

  after 1 hour of waiting sa kasama-ang palad hindi man lang siya nakapag reply sakin haaayyyst! ang sakit naman :'(  parang sinasampal naman sakin yung katotohan na wala na talaga . hayy ! :3  so , i decided not to text him in the following days , pero ang sakit >_< masyadong tanga ako sa paningin ng iba , wala lang naman akong ka idea kung ano talaga ang nangyari ? paano pa ako makaka move on neto ? hay ! i know someday this pain that turns my heart into pieces will be fade away , i know it takes time but i'm sure this time that i'll be waiting will be more worth than i expected .