Koi no yokan

Chapter 1

3 years ago..

Pearls POV

My life wasn't the finest to begin with. I won't say it was the worst but it certainly wasn't good. My first love who also seemed to be my boyfriend turned out to be abusive. I was a 13 year old teenager when I started dating him which lasted for 4 years before I ended it. Not to mention it took me 4 more years to heal. It was hard. But I made it somehow.
After 4 years I got into one of the best colleges for commerce and accounting. It was my dream college. It was there where I started to over come my fears.
It was also at that place when I saw him for the first time
Makoto Kenji.
Who knew he would change my life completely.
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I was just done with my classes and was about to leave when something caught my eye. Or rather someone. It had been a year since I was studying in this college yet I had never seen him before. He was standing right outside the door probably waiting for someone. I barely looked at him for a few seconds, then tell me why I was thinking about him?
The first thing I noticed about him were his eyes. Do people even have eyes that big? lol don't get me wrong. They were pretty.
I shrugged off the feeling. I didn't want to deal with that right now. After what had happened with my ex I was terrified of relationships to begin with or even having crushes. But he was beautiful.
I didn't see him again
My  days went on as usual
But I kept thinking about him. The fact that he was on my mind for so long was infuriating. The constant urge to see him again, hopefully closer this time. It made me feel pathetic.
Eventually I got busy with my studies and forgot about him
Or so I thought.
A month had went by, by this time. I was with my friends walking out of my college to go grab a quick bite before my next class. I walk down stairs and take a quick turn.
What do I see first?
It's him.
Mind you I don't even know his name at this point.
I froze.
I fu*king froze.
He was literally the last person I wanted to see. I wanted to run away but it felt like my legs were glued to the floor. He was walking towards me.
Towards me?
Towards me!?!?!!!!!!
WTF.
NO.
Okay I'm panicking.
My friend sensed my uneasiness because not long after she asked "pearl, hey are you okay?"
And like the fu*king dumbfu*ck I am I blurted out, "Do you know him?"
Oh god. Sometimes I can really relate to my guardian angels when I go on making reckless decisions.
Anyways that's how I came to know his name is Makoto Kenji.

Makoto Kenji.

He was my friend's classmate.
Makoto passed by us. And as he passed by I had a  closer look at him. And he's beautiful. My eyes froze onto him. Taking in everything I could. Taking in everything so I could never forget his face.
I knew at that moment it wasn't just attractiveness or a mere crush. It was more.
And I was fucked.
It felt like an unexpected surprise
Yet a defining moment
It was as if all the stars in the universe started revolving around me only to slam into me all at once.
I had never thought I'll feel like this for someone after my ex. I never expected it to be him.
But it is him.
And I know in my heart that from now on,
It's always gonna be him.
And now there's no looking back.
My life was about to turn and I had no idea how much that'll cost me.

It had been a few weeks. My friend that knew Makoto introduced me to him. We started talking , we shook hands and I had to control the urge to faint at the spot. There were fireworks in my entire body. I have never been so happy to touch something or someone let alone a guy.

I started observing him more. He's shy. I always had a thing for shy guys. I try to talk to him be around him as much as I could. Touch as such is the fist bump I give everyone, but I want more. I want to touch him, his face, his hairs, it's maddening. But I have come up with my own ways. I flick his forehead. That gets him annoyed but it's okay I can bare it. It's cute the way he lightly scrunches his nose upwards and then says, "why? Stop it!?!"
And god you can't imagine how badly I want to kiss him. Kiss his scrunched nose and say "because you're so pretty"
He's.....God he's beautiful. Everything he does is beautiful. A few days ago I saw him laughing with his friends for the first time, and oh lord.
My heart it can't take this much.
He's the definition of being beautiful.
I wanted to be the reason he laughs.
I'd make a joke out of myself a million times if it meant he'd smile or laugh with me.

It's been months now.
And he doesn't even have to try to impress me I'm already head over heels for him.
We have become closer than ever now. But he's still shy. That's okay though. I just want to be with him somewhere around him, anywhere near him. So that I could look at him admire him.
His big brown eyes that could outshine everything cause they're a million times more beautiful than anything I've ever seen in my life. Then his thick eyebrows and his little pointed nose, his lips, his little moustache, and that little spot he has on the left side of his face a little below his lips.
He's addictive.
And I'm so fu*cked.