My Life

I feel like crying so badly.

I can't be myself & anytime I try I'm always scolded. And made to feel bad about being myself. I often feel like screaming & u know I'm tired of it all & everything. Also a lot of things have happened since I last wrote on here. Well my light had come by for my birthday, & long story short. His grandmo lied to him about what my adopted mom/great aunt had told her & she also lied to him. Now as far as I'm concerned she isn't his grandmo to me she is his birth giver's incubator. My adopted mom/great had told his birth giver & her incubator that me & him work well together & they laughed at that. We got married in march to avoid his incubator a.k.a. his birth giver trying to keep us apart, even though we would have liked to have our dream wedding in the future she forced our hand. With all her lies & threats that will never happen filling his head. His incubator a.k.a. his birth giver & her incubator keep saying he didn't want to marry me. He keeps trying to make peace between us but there is no making peace between us. They literally say they love & care about him but they actually don't. And family isn't blood, family is being surrounded by those who are always there for you, from your worst & lowest moments to your best moments, family is those who don't try & bring u down, family are those who don't try & make you feel limited simply because ur vessel has disabilities. And I feel like crying again. A lot has happened & I wish he would see that there is no trying to talk with them. If anyone who is on here is a psychologist I would like some advice on our situation. It hurts so fucken much being apart from him.