Are you using me?, just like all the others do...
it's okay if you are.
I deserve it.
right?
are you sure, I'm not forcing you to talk?
oh you want a pic? I don't really-
okay I'll do anything that you wish.
I'm sorry for the little interview,
I just want a review of your inner monologue.
I'm fed up with being a hopeless romantic.
all the antics have got me stressed
and looking like a mess whenever someone crosses my path.
I just want to know if you are a hopeless romantic, like me.
and if you are willing to beg for me, on your knees. and love me like I'm the only girl that you would like to please.
or wether you just want me to please you so that you can leave.
I get it.
I really do.
I know I'm not pretty, like that girl with the tight fit and the body of a model, freshly cared for hair, straight teeth, and clear skin that doesn't change with the gust of the wind.
I just want to be loved.
if you don't want me.
I want the honest truth,
but honestly, your communication is proof that all we could of been, was just a dream.
a personally selected and hand crafted version of you from my own Brain.
you tricked me!?
or did I trick myself, by giving myself false expectations of your feelings even when you didn't give me clarity?
they all leave in the end.
and blame it on me.
oh goodness me, I can't take it anymore!
do I need a boyfriend?
no but the craving of having a warm body to console me has my brain raving and praying that I just find the one for me.
