College is tiring.
It's the same cycle. 6 days a week of classes, waking up early in the morning, going home not being able to rest and eat because you have to study. Makapuol. I want to give up but I can't. My family is counting on me. Everyone is rooting for me kay mag "doctor" lagi daw ko pero 1st year of college palang gani depressing na kaayu. Just realized I don't feel like pursuing med school especially knowing all kinds of people I'll encounter. Labi nanang taw na lisod ideal. My biggest stressor for real.
My university is known for being the best. If not, a quality school for pharmacy. I love it here. I love my program but it doesn't mean it's going to be easy. It's hard studying when all you want is sleep and have fun. Even if you love your program, it's still hard to wake up in the morning, you're depressed and it's cold as fuck.
I look like shit.
I love makeup but I don't wear them during school days. Makeup is not allowed in the laboratory anyway, I don't want to be bothered with how messy my makeup could get and I always nap at school so I definitely can't wear makeup as the foundation would transfer to my arm, lol.
As we're having our Math class, I received a message.
Hi Juliaaa. Taga University of * ka?
What do you mean I'm from the University of *? It's so funny I'm not from that university.
Nooo, I'm from U**.
I wonder why but I didn't ask him that. He looks cute btw, pogi. I laughed in my head.
There's no way this dude is hitting up on me. I'm not pretty okay! I look average and I hate how I look sometimes.
It was you then.
Ha?!
You saw me?!
No fucking way he saw me and I look like shit. Pretend you didn't see me, please!
Yea. Gikan ko duwa basket and it rained so nagpasilong ko, then I saw you pass by.
This dude is for real? How could he recognize my face we literally just met here sa Facebook. But I didn't that.
Hala no?? Small world. You're from here?
What are the odds of seeing your online friends in person? Weird world. I mean I know he's from Cebu but I don't even know him except for his name. He just added me one day and I accepted it and life went on.
Dili oii. Just went there for basket.
I just nodded and didn't reply na not until he messaged again.
Gwapa kayka.
Hala oi. Muplay man sad ang Hanap-Hanap by James Reid sakong head. I blushed hard kay he's so cute jud and I'm so out of his league. I don't know why he's doing this.
Dili tawn oii. Naulaw nako nimo, kita ka nako sa lowest point sakong life hahaha
He just reacted haha after that and the conversation ended. Me na uto-uto, kilig sad kaayu. But seriously, I've been eyeing this guy na, just didn't pursue him and went with the "out of sight, out of mind" mindset kay I don't think I'm good for anyone else AND I don't like it when I like someone, I become not like myself.
But the stunt that he pulled triggered my interest with him even more. I never thought he'd notice me. I'm not used to being noticed, I'm not pretty. You may be wondering what I look like. Well, I have fair skin, I'm 4'11 ft and 60 kg, and I have long black hair. I've worked so hard to keep my hair this long, by the way. I don't know if I'm chinita jod just maybe the eyes. My thighs and bum are blessed I guess? I don't know, you judge.
