Compilation of Poems written in the Dead of Night

doll like

Sometimes i forget im human,

I accidentally convince others that i'm perfect,

And slowly, bit by bit i lose my humanity

With every choice i make that i believe

Will benefit others instead of remembering myself

Can i make mistakes?

Is it possible for this husk of a being to embarrass herself

In a way she can't return from?

If i stay in my room and stay quiet and stay unnoticeable and stay nice and stay empty,

I will never put myself in a situation where my flaws break out

Flaking my skin into cracks that wind down my body

Spewing viscous rotten sinew that eats me from the outside in

And i drown in it as others watch on in horror and fear and crippling judgement

I hate myself more than they could ever know.

And i will never let them know.