The Book That Will Changed My Destiny

Chapter 1

There's no such fairytale in this world, if happy ever after exist... It only in humans imagination.

"Talaga! Kakalimutan kita! Kakalimutan ko lahat ng mga ala-alang iiwan mo sa akin sa mga oras na 'to. Kakalimutan ko 'yung mga panahong masaya ako sa piling mo. Kakalimutan ko 'yung mga ngiti ko dahil sa'yo. Kakalimutan ko 'yung mga gabing ikaw ang hinahanap ng puso ko. Kakalimutan kita!" Buong lakas kong sigaw.

Walang pakialam kung naririnig kami ng mga tao sa paligid.

"And you don't have to tell me what to do dahil tapos na akong makinig sa'yo, tapos na akong sundin lahat ng mga gusto mo para sa'kin."

I'm trying to hold another tears but I couldn't. They're shedding like there's no tomorrow to cry on.

"Calm down, I want us to talk in a nice way nang walang nagtataasan ng boses." Kalmado niyang usal.

I sniffled to hold another tears.

He's demanding a break up. He wants us to split just because he couldn't take care of our relationship anymore.

But our relationship will workout-will still workout. Pero gusto na niyang tapusin ang lahat, at hindi ko matanggap. Masyado akong nasasaktan para tuluyan siyang palayain.

"Hindi mo na ba ako mahal, Kyden? Why do you have to do this to me? I-I'm hurting..." I pursed my lips, trying to hold my tears once again.

"I'm sorry kung nasasaktan ka sa desisyon ko pero hindi na natin kaya pang isalba 'to eh. Para na lang tayong runners na naghihintay na lang na makita ang finish line. Kaya tayo pa rin kasi kailangan na lang natin ang isa't isa." He said.

Humakbang na naman siya ng isang beses papunta sa akin pero humakbang lang din ako patalikod.

"Isn't it enough reason for us to hold on? Gano'n naman talaga 'di ba? In order to strengthen the relationship, you have to need each other. Kailangan natin ang isa't isa, tama.-But we don't love each other anymore." He cut me.

Hindi ko na napigilan pa ang luha ko at nagsituluan na sila.

"No, you're wrong because I still love you. I love you always. I love you, Kyden." My vision's getting blurry, I couldn't see his figure clearly.

Parang relasyon namin, malabo na.

"You don't love me, Aecy." I frowned. How dare him state the words that doesn't even align with my feelings.

"How can you sa-Can you finish me first hmm?" He cut me again.

Madiin kong kinagat ang ibabang labi ko at napatingin sa kabilang direksiyon, napabuntong hininga rin ako at muli siyang tinignan.

"Maybe you loved me, but I don't think so up until now you still do." I keep my face straight, waiting for his next word.

"Do you know what's the other perspective of love in this world? We, humans are believing that love exist. But some people don't believe that concept in this world, isa na ako ro'n. Typically, love is just a term that we only use to express the strong fondness that we felt towards the person."

Hindi ko maintindihan ang pinupunto niya. Anong alam niya sa pag-ibig eh tinatapos na niya lahat sa amin ngayon?

"When you say you love that person, you don't really mean it. You're just dealing with happiness with the thought of being with them as they made you feel something. Something like strong fondness, appreciation, and bond. Your positive emotion is at boost. You need me not because you love me, you need me because you are afraid to be left by me as you felt those while you're with me. You care because you're afraid of losing me and the feeling and emotions I made you feel. I didn't make an impact to you but I provided something that you want. And that's why you're settling for this. You don't love me, it's just fulfilling the need."I cried even more.

How could he say that without any trace of hesitation? How could he hurt me more by his words? He don't know anything about how I feel for him.