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Present Fleeting Moments

5:21 am.  9/5/2024
Noises in the dark

My paranoia gets worse as the night goes on
What if there were bugs
But what if they're gone
What if the fake vines are
Waving in the wind
My fan cranked up to high
And my stress up to 10.
The noises around me
All could be something else
A buzzing
A rattling
Even a jingling sound
And still that white noise
That chattering like a sizzling stove
Mesh the noises together
The new and the old
And here I am paranoid
For all these could be.
As I sit in the darkness
Failing to sleep
And thinking oh honestly how hard this day might be
As the noises rattle around
And paranoid
I can't see.

But as I  name them one by one
I eventually fall asleep.

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9/9/2024
Looking Out

Who is the old man crying on the porch
Does he have a job
Is he stressed or unemployed?
Does he have a wife and kids or is it just him
On his porch
Hunched over in some unspoken peace or agony
covering his ears because it's too much to even see
The world fly by so fast
From first breath to the last and on rainy days
It crashed
Rocking far from the past
Who is the old man on the porch at night

At least he had on the light

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3:31 am 9/15 2024
A Scroll down memory lane.
When instagram is the only place I see your face

A velvet thorn in my side
Your eyes sting
Like red wine
And why do i keep asking why
Or if our friendship was some hidden lie
Your birthday passed this passed September
And celebrating, congratulating
Every year I remember
Writing it down in my diary
Cause I'm so forgetful but remember what you mean to me
Was it ever awkward
We never talked about love
Never talked of our futures
Or what we dreamed of
Only the present
And we'd laugh it off
Until we got older and the honeymoon wore off
And friends drift apart
But why did ours break
Like that moment your realize you can't drink lemonade
There's too much Suger
You feel your heart will burst
There's no more substance
And too much thirst
And so you cut it out
Like an ex you don't want to see
When friendships feel like break ups
When I lost you and me
And you said I could call "if you ever truly need me"
And no longer casual was the twin flame
That blew away just as quickly
As when it was lit
And that was it.

On the floor reading books
And within one sentence
One moment
I was hooked. 

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9/18/2024
The sky today reminds me of
Of the skys in LA
the smog is close
While the suns to far away.